4 parts to one me

hello my fellow readers. i have finally come to a total conclusion to attempt blogging everyday.. a new blogskin will come soon so many new changes from me to you = )

moving along to todays entry.. there will be 4 things i will touch on yeah... so get ready

1. Music is my life
2. My little superhero girl
3. Me and my vile durian
4. PROM!!

1. music is my life

Recently i got myself involved with SYFC in the performing arts area and yeah its gotten me quite busy. I am playin the bass guitar for technically 6 days a week. its got me and my priorities straight cos' its really what i wanted to do for the longest of times to be able to serve God through the music i play. it gets really tiring but i hope that i will always remember to realli do everythin for God and the best only! well readers, always go all out and pursue and do everythin to the best of your abilities and don't ever give yourself the chance to look back and say that you are a failure...

2. My little superhero girl!!

First an foremost i wanna say that i am sorry being so busy during the holidays and i know i did something that went against what i said to you initially. But i also want to thank you for understanding and being supportive of me. it really means the world. I promise to write you 4 letters before your camp and promise to spend more time with you whenever i can. i promise to hug and hold you whenever you miss me or need me. I promise to love you for as long as we are together and love you unconditionally. Thank you for being mine. Rock on. My little superhero girl!!

3. Me and my vile durian

As i finished the last of the previous paragraph, my nose started to bleed and yes it is due to the bugger of a absolutely fantastic-buttery thai durian that my daddy bought. so yeah.... anyway i love my durian and yeah its my best friend everytime i am chattin late into the night.... its a nice friend lol...sorry this was just an additional bullshit paragraph... moving on...

4. PROM!!

Prom. the night where nerds, jocks, dickheads, asswipes and the best of friends gather in a bal room to dance their ass off. the day where people who cant dance let their hair down and shake their booties like they did when they first heard michael jackson's "THRILLER" . The night where a cast system existed no more and everyone magically transforms into classy adults in all the suits and pretty dresses. as the dj spins the turntable they become unison as one cohort that has never been.. ok who was i joking... prom was coooller than that ass shaking intro i gave... ya....well prom rocked because we were there... i learnt that we made prom and not prom to us.. we are the one...and we rock!!! Ladies and gentleman... cautious reminder... prom is also the beginning of the end of secondary school life... where we go on our own seperate ways like how our forefathers left malaysia.... we wil be independant... soon we willl fade.... lets hope that don't happen!!

anyway... to end today i just wanna say that secondary school life with all my buds rocked.... i have already started missing it.... well... rock one my mates!! lets get together frequently til we turn all saggy and soggy... peace!!

childrens day!!

hey people of the blogging world today marks the 1st of October... today i would like to commerate 3 significant events...

1. Grace's birthday!!
2. Last meeting =
3. Childrens day

1. Grace's birthday
today is Grace's birthday (due to personal reasons i shall tell you that grace is '25') yes indeed. so HAPPY BIRTHDAY Grace... will record the song soon... i dun even think you read my blog but heck!!

2. Last meeting
today is a sad day as well because i wont be able to meet her until after the O's... saddening but true.. well i hope you study hard and do the Lord proud and i will be praying and supporting you all the way frm serangoon..lol...<3

3. Childrens' day
this is actually the main focal point to todays entry.. i got this inspiration while i was in the bath and watching mtv after that... today is a day marked out for children all over S'pore and a day to be reminded that i am old.. well... i am still a child wat...lol...anyway children of s'pore get gifts on a day like this and some even get to slave drive their parents for a day.. but is it like this all over the world?

children in less developed countries are still suffering on this day. they are not even aware that a day has been set a side for them.. child pornography is still on a rise... what happened to the "i believe children are our future..." mentality....we hear of sexual exploitaion... poverty... and even how children are used to help bums earn a living... children are human beings and they are not much lesser than you.. remember that you sick shits!!! Jesus said that children will be the greatest in the kingdom of God and anyone who goes to heaven must be like a child, humble and innocent...i urge the world to remember that children are not a tool to make money... children are human beings not any lesser than me or you... pray for this children... get aware!!

isaac!

another boring story

hello my fellow bored ppl... welcome back to the blog in which you so dearly missed for a good month of your life while u sat on ur asses growin fat. welcome to the hell hole of all u ingrates peace and greeting to you!

anyway with that stupid introduction i am back. but i will onli be here for another one time b4 i am sacrificed to the gods of the bloody o level exams residing in their warm comfy fat ass chairs having a spot of tea while we are left as scraps to feed to the dogs! life has ones again reverted to a mundane state where studyin seems the onli option. and yes prelims jus finished, results sucked, need i say more....

rte todays post will be dedicated to my favourite teacher who i hope will drill me to the grnd b4 i commit suicide. i shall not name that person because she is severely over 40 yup...old! anyway she has been my source of inspiration. being a long winded wind bag has certainly inspired me to be the best i can. her constant encouragements of "go kill yourself" and "hahah too bad" well it paid off i hope... indeed she is the best teacher anyone could have and i dun mean any of that in a sarcastic tone but really those were the words of wisdom for someone who has walked this earth much longer than dinosaurs..yup my dear old-one of a kind- nonchalant heck of a teacher... my inspiration...

anyway things at camp suicide have improved eh... we are all working our butts off to not make life anymore difficult than it is for ourselves...ed still thinks i am beef...ha...anyway that was random...

i am proud to say i am proud of someone who has cried over conversations and got worried about everything under the sun stuck it out well and did her best for the prelims! i am here to extend my big applaus for her....

moving on to the latest news: the weather for tml seems partly cloudly with all the crazy nuts trying their best to organise a crap camp of a holiday...please dun take anythin personally cause i didnt state names and some of this scenarios may be fictional so if anyone dead or alive has the same letters in their name....i was totally coincedental.....ok bull shit jus falling from the sky now...anyway i cant write no more,....i dunno wat to type anymore...wait til my rusted brain has completed the mundane of a life stage meanwhile you ppl get ready for a new revolution that will be led very soon...in camp suicide!!! chill you nuts@@

seriously cranky!

my fellow friends i bid you greetings from my very own hell hole!

tomorrow is the oral exams! bloody fast la!

panicky? nah!

planning to bull shit!

dun ask me about the spaces i ain't sure so...

anyway life so far? very much the same except a drastic change in my talk time...it seems my mobile phone would be underused until the O's are over...falling very sick now (not in my head ED!) and yeah it was contributed by the lack of a better half i guess....wonderboy left me for some shit hole yeah...hell was not good enough...well...stupid man!

anyway lost my alter ego, my ability to write songs and it seems my life! has become nothing but MUNDANE! i dunno what to say or feel but it aint no matter no more...i guess i aint emo! well maybe....haha! things between ppl have been about the same maybe i am becoming sensitive or the whole world is but yeah same o same o! cant imagine if you were to go to france! akon will so be my trash hold! its a bit the difficult to know any longer how i should write all this trash but i guess i would not be blogging for an uber long time soyeah...well the internet is full of other trash go make yourself at home... dun really think i would be missed much...

stagnant mobile; too chicken a boy to make the call!!

dont know why...

hey peeps its been another long time since i started blogging but yea well...anyway been going thru a lot since the last time i blogged some good and some bad but it doesnt really matter now... todays entry will come free and easy wherever my fingers go on this keyboard.

the moment we were born and could speak we started to question. and many of this questions seemed irrelevant to the adults cause none of them gave a damn on why the sky was blue or why rain fell and didn't rise... but it seems that we have become the very adults we detested. we cant really be bothered with those younger than us neither can we understand wth the older ppl talked abt. so ya. things are really reversing as we grow. this aint only for the questioning part but it works the same way as information. we used to marvel at the creation that walked the earth but now it seems as though that dont matter no more. why? is it not important to know why we were created. for one i would not tolerate that i was an accident and out of somebodies nose hair came such a being like me...thats all the bull the world offers and yup its stupid...lol...

the next thing i would go into is......music?
i dunno music is really something that seems to always match a certain mood we have. listn to jazz brings us to the relack one corner kinda mentallity but if we were to go on to metal we would do it based on angst and everythin but happiness yougeddawaddaimean....so music plays by mood. like as i type this lethargic post i am listn to norah jones throw me jazz ballads and make me sleepy and yes i am tempted to hear angus young crank up his guit or billie joe armstrong scream his ounk lungs out and maybe even get that fone call i am so waiting for... it makes me feel comforted to hear the fone ring but many times the people on the other end aint what i am seeking to reduce my troubles.... where is that special person....well take things easy and every stride with pride and walk on by.... kudos to the ppl out dere who have cared for the angsty bugger behind the keyboard so yeah... chill and rock on man...

anyway i gotta bid you farewell.... going to relak one corner....

peace!

angsty bugger!

well how time flies and so does this alter ego of mine. well it has turned passe with those around me. yes to diana i am an angsty guy and i ain't proud of it but there is just more than one side. this blog shows people a side of me that people do not usually see. i am not saying i am posing in all my ways but it is through my writing i can express things better.

angst has always been a problem for the many youths of today and me obviously. it is something that we all have to face because of the ever continuing problems we face. but the only difference is how we deal with this angst. i deal with it by writing while some deal it in a different way like personal infliction. the only reason why i choose to be more liberated here is because i want the world to know. its difficult to say things and thats the truth but escaping it is worse. in time i will learn to share more and i will do that in the know that it will help. God loves and i don't deny because i have seen it happening in my life a lot. i feel down many times because i view myself as a failure when i really had nothing to do with a situation at all. i lack a quality known as self preservation and that kills me really fast. i have grown over time to learn to understand people faster than usual and that has been both a blessing and a curse because i tend to judge and than appropriately mould my life around others. this really makes me a failure at what i preach and right now i am doing my best to make things work out not for people and not for me but for God because it is a servents duty to serve a master whole heartedly and not grudgingly. i thank Him for giving me the ability to really understand things fast but that is different from allowing me to let go.

it is always important to know why we fall rather than to get up because we might just be moving on without knowing anything only to find ourselves back at square one.

weirdo...

hello again... beautiful day..i am writing my second entry in abt one hour or two...who cares...anyway i have evolved into a walking time bomb... a blender mixed with feelings, emotions, and me! so yeah i will have that frap to go with cream please..

so you see that i can get mad and i hope for the tolerance that all my friends can give me.... i will blow and than simmer as though i am crazy...but i am...

i feel the urge like i said to be evil yet i have learnt that goodness is a better option... i dunno anything anymore... i dun feel like talking... can i totally outkast myself like last time... can i bear the consequences of my choices... i dunno and there is no one to really tell me... so ya.... i am lost...

LOST! did u hear me? i got lost because of the crap i had to suffer... and am still suffering... why cant i be happy for myself... its just in me to still care... but why? cant i be cold and heartless... its difficult to understand people... they seem to love masking themselves up and when they face someone who turns insane like me they go scared and avoid... well... i bring reality and that can suck so ya... ha...

its difficult and never easy... dunno why i am still typing because i really exhausted all that i had to say.. i preached my lesson but it hasnt come to mind... so yeah... before i preach something i cant live i would stop here and allow a breather... this isn't the last of me... i will....

wonderboy

High above the mucky-muck, castle made of clouds, There sits Wonderboy, sitting oh so proudly. Not much to say when you're high above the mucky-muck. Yeah, yeah. Wonderboy, what is the secret of your power? Wonderboy, won't you take me far away from the mucky-muck man?

can i be wonderboy? life sometimes is really filled with mucky muck man and things that its just difficult. my post have really lamented life to the point of life's non-existence.

i wanna feel like wonderboy is that too much to ask? childish but sometimes we must. escaping from the mucky muck to make sure life will allow us to stand tall and proud. i am pressing on to do that so that i may not be affected. i have turned to become a little more freaky than before and it seems that it eats me up. i wrote two letters today which showed botht the demon and angel like character that was contained inside of me. i wanted badly to take revenge yet that vengeance was not mine to handle but Gods'.

i just need the silence to drown my heart out to really say that i will not be affected. life is still going to fast. i have dug certain graves and have prepared myself to lie in it in hope for the best of the others that my death might make grasses greener. i will decompose slowly to form nothing and eventually all that is left will be mere memories that will lose its meaning. we will forget how the strawberyy ice cream tasted so sweet in our mouths and vaguely remember the insignificant. life doesnt always go the way we want so live with it!

i will be wonder boy....

story time...

rain drops fell along the sidewalk of cherry street by which a young lad sat watching cars go by and enjoying the ice cream he paid for with the dime that rolled down that street. as the drops fell, the lad looked up to the heavens and tears flowed down his face. mummy was gone that day.

a few blocks away at the local cemetary, a man clad in black watched as the ordained minister pronounced his last rites before the casket was sealed. sadness encompassed the whole town.

nothing really brings a smile to our faces when deaths of friends or family members come our way. by this death i do not mean mere physical ones but those that involve us totally regretting to not be able to say our last sorries because our pride meant more. can't we just be frank and say that all that happen really was because we lacked faith within ourself. why must everythin be rationalized!

the lad looked up and instead of blaming God for his mother's death, he proclaimed, "Thank you God for showing your sympathy by pouring this showers down on me to really remember that you will always be there for me as you had to my mother who rest by your side."

Live your life in hope that we can sail through nicely, well all i can say is that you are a slob if you do think that way. Life isn't about you. Life is about showing those around us what
God has done so that they might eventually be convicted and love the Lord in the same way we do.

~soli deo gloria

normal..

well...its hours before the my final predictament....worried...D"UH!!! but thanks to my mates at school and everyone else for showing support...i will get well!!! i promise...and finally attain my rock and roll dreams...lol....rte..ok.....enjoy this post in green....

live, love are really what many of us hold on too and sometimes we might lose the faith we put in this. its really difficult to move on in such a bleak future whereby nothin really seems to be gettin rte..well......thats faith for you...

faith is many times just believing in the unseeable and even untouchable...faith can be really be put to the test in many ways like how we would try and leap off a 20 storey building in hopes to live and be a hero...well....STUPID!!!

anyway what i really wanna bring across is that sometimes we need to make leaps of faith in life...as a Christian the biggest leaps i have made really involve me and my faith in God.... my walk with him can realli be described as walking through a foggy forest...i can hear him but sometimes i dun there to walk in the same direction....God and even our parents want us to trust their judgements but we just are afriad.... as much as we know they are there for us though we cant see them, we jus are to afraid to follow their voices instead we listn to ourselve and end up lost.... is this wat faith is all abt...trustin onli in yourself?

it has really been a difficult time for me rte now and all i can really do is trust and i am trying my best....I am weak but Thou O Lord art Strong....

Time of your life!

time and time again i fell. time and time again i let people down. i let my family and God down so much that most of them have given up all hope on me. i can't really express my sorry-ful being now because nothing i can say will really change anything in my life. it has been more difficult for those around to really tolerate me but all i ask is for my family to pray for me. For God to forgive me and keep me to His side that i may not falter in my life. I am sorry to the faith i have kept for i have many a times attempted to run from Him and hide in the dark hoping that no one can see me. But He can. i ask myself how much have i shown to be the mature person that people see me to be but i guess i really can't. life has been a lie to a lot of people and i guess i really need to start being myself. introverted as i may presume i am, i never really know. no one can help me but my Faith in God and myself. why do i constantly have this short comings. no one really can answer this. i am writing all of this to represent what i feel in a form of words so i plead for no criticism. it is really a difficult peril that i am stuck in. obivious to my mistakes many a times. living a lie that everyone around me likes. maybe i should just take a step back and view the problems i have. my addiction for pornography, drinks, nicotine have all been part and parcel of this depraved mind i have. Has God really handed me over to that area? I have pledged myself time and time again to live the christian walk but end up not being who i ought to be. maybe i aint worth it anymore. i really want to change but with all this said i dun want to be treated differently at all by the people around me. its really somthing difficult to publish my short comings but i believe it is better to come clean and stop all this for the better. It aint really a laughin matter anymore for all of us especially myself. i have shown my skeletons.. my music has also sometimes been a hatred. many times it is really all jus superficial words that dont mean a thing but still add up to a tune. but this song i have written the whole of today brings out the fact that there is a need for us to look and treat life differently now. problems will be prevalent but we must face it head on. smiling makes the best of our days and if i am lying so help me God.

'i lay all this unto you, oh God that i might be a better servent and not remain as a sinner so depraved that death itself seems demeaning of all i have done. I call out to you to irradicate this sins and make my life a whole new one pleasing and holy unto your name in Jesus name i pray, Amen'

I aint ashamed of the faith and i would continue living my life in a different manner but here is the song i wrote for your viewing pleasure it is titled LIFE!

Life is all about them ups and downs
Its road never ever straight
But we still must face it with a smile
It is making me insane

Life aint that pretty like they say in Hollywood!
Nothing much we can do to make it change
But if there is one thing I know we all can do
Put that across your face
And say hey……

Chorus
Stop and smell the roses
You are only 16
Life is only a nightmare when you make it seem
That there is no where else to hide
And nothing seems alright
So lets make the best out of life!

What would you do when a gun is pointed at your head?
Would you turn around and denounce your faith
If there is one thing that you wanted to change
Will it really make you smile once again!

Chorus
Stop and smell the roses
You are only 16
Life is only a nightmare when you make it seem
That there is no where else to hide
And nothing seems alright
So lets make the best out of life!

blog

hello one and all...jus so you would notice i increased the font for better viewing pleasure. this has been highlighted by many ppl who read this blog who say they can't see a shit. interesting how my prescence is still wanted even after that.

ok today all my colours would be rather gay. but not a suprise to many so yeah.

for a long time i have not blogged cause my life has been a real rollercoaster of tragedies, relieves, fun, and a whole lot more of mixed emotions. i have been tryin my best to get over certain things but its jus so hard to let go of things you truly spent your heart, mind and soul on and when they walk out it really sucks. i am still stuck in animation so much so i don't even know what is happenin to me. well even when things don't go our way at times it is always wise to try starting afresh. i wrote a song for a close person and the lyrics will be flashed at the bottom. yes it is emo so piss off if u cant stand it. i decided to put all i wanted to say to you within the song and maybe one day it will all be better again.

this entry is not going to be too lame because i am quite tired. haven been sleeping with the world cup and things running through my head at top sleep. life is going to fast and maybe i should do as Alicia says. "stop and smell the roses. you are onli 16 la chicken backside!" and yes i will try my hardest but maybe not the backside part. yeah. its really a wonder that God put friends on the earth to support us and everythin and i am truly appreciative of y'all and in my way i will take time to say thanks.

have fun peeps! this is the song i wrote and you can alwaes call me if u wanna hear it but i still have yet to present it to you...

title: I'm sorry (please forgive me)

What did you say,
Could you explain it
Or Can’t you just show me the way

I know I’m wrong
So please forgive me
Instead of just walking away

Drunk in my sorrows,
And lost in the way

Why must it hurt
Like a spear through my heart
Can’t you just give me a chance

If words and letters don’t mean a thing
Consider this song as my plea
I’m Sorry

I chose to escape
Away from the truth
Subliminal to all my mistakes

Down and depressed
I took you for granted
The darkness became my best friend

Drunk in my sorrow
And lost in the way

Why must it hurt
Like a spear through my heart
Can’t you just give me a chance

If words and letters don’t mean a thing
Consider this song as my plea
I’m Sorry

I am sincere about changing with time
I know you will give me that chance
Old habits die hard
But nothings impossible to change

Why must it hurt
Like a spear through my heart
Can’t you just give me a chance

If words and letters don’t mean a thing
Consider this song as my plea
I’m Sorry

Time?

time? what is time? time is the damn thing you read of the ugly thing on your hand known as a watch if it aint a green day one!!(ref to earlier post..)

welcome back to another lame edition of..erm.. lets call this.. the-thing you-read-when-you-are-bored (TTYRWYAB) blog lol...ok in this issue we will discover how the phrase 'life is full of shit' actually came to mean that life sucked..

it all began one eventful summer day in the complicated yet unknown place known as HUman BOdy. on this very day, everyone living in this town were competing to see who will get to rule the place and so the EYE said, " I should rule this place because without me you cannot seeeee!!!"

"without me and my brother you cannot feel..."said the hands and legs.

"without me you cannot hear..." said the ear.

so the "without me..." war went on and unfortunately eminem wasn't there..lol..so finally someone unexpected showed up and debated for the ruling.. He was non other than ANUS!!!

"without me you shall feel pain!!" exclaimed anus but no one listened so Anus decided to constrict himself and this is known more commonly as constpation. the others didn't believe and so they laughed,"haha. what can a little shit hole like you do?!. haha!"

for the next 7 seven days, the parts in HUman BOdy started to wear down. they could not function with Anus constricting himself and decided to call him their ruler.

what is the moral then my friends?

Life is sooo full of shit that sometimes we can jus wear away. storing soooo much shit in us doesnt help it only makes the little shits holes around us happier so all we jus need to do is...take some laxative, visit the toilet and you would have a jolly good time....cheers mate!!!

"Life isn't like a box of chocolates.... It's more like a jar of jalapenos. What you do today might burn your ass tomorrow."

yup..thats my liturgy of life...well today i will attempt to write a lon g entry but bear with me because i am really tired and lazy...what a combi eh... note: sorry if the entry is gonna get boring.

study has been top priority for the past few weeks and its really getting to me...like a north pole to the south..ok...well..i've been really tired and all the lame shit the last few days were jus excuses to get myself entertained..many times for us it has jus gone on to be a monotonous journey like a broken tape recorder and it sucks!

rte now all my energy has been spent on such an area that i am turning more lame...literally and psychologically...and now it doesn't help with all the stupid hype abt the GE now...big deal man...literally...give us more money!!!

ok...i am gonna attempt to crap... for the next few lines i hope...

well...

talk is cheap man because it cost me like 5 cents per message but we shouldnt go around jus tokin because it may jus result in a hell lot of payment when we actually look back when we cursed at the Gov or somethin...why do ppl these days get sooo affected by words..yes i have been guilty of that but not to the point that we can't forgive and forget...sometimes i forgive but i would nv forget cause ppl jus dun deserve it..the whole act abt the wordplay is a cool issue that many ppl jus dun get...the easiest words may be sharper den any two edged sword but the man who doesn get that is jus tracing paper...

yes today its all abt the dry humour so feel free to not luff because like i said...its all abt the wordplay!!!

Name 20 people you can think of right now at the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you have written the names of all the 20 people. Okay tag at least five people. Ready? Start!
1. Pei Ying
2. gwen
3. Prunella
4. Edwina
5. Sabrina
6. Saiful
7. Zaki
8. Pei Jun (peiying’s sister)
9. David
10. Hafiz
11. Ian
12. Irwin
13. Eugene tan
14. Chong Zheng (peiying’s brother)
15. Kristle
16. Daniel Lee
17. Gorden
18. Cephas
19. Alicia
20. Victoria

Okay, now the questions...
1. How did you meet 14?
I haven’t…

2. What would you do if you had never met 1?
I’ll jus die…

3. What would you do if 20 & 9 dated?
God knows…

4. Did you ever like 19?
No!!

5. Would 6 & 17 make a good couple?
Unless its brokeback…

6. Describe 3.
Very cool and supportive of me…jus Da best

7. Do you think 8's attractive?
yup…hot! Lol sister better!!

8. Tell me something about 7.
He is bloody philosophical but cool… loves June!

9. Do you know any of 12's family?
I am part of it d’uh

10. What's 15's favourite?
Me! Lol…nah…I aint sure.. her hollaback crew

11. What would you do if 18 just confessed that he/she likes you?
Laugh my ass off!

12. What language does 15 speaks?
Onli English!

13. who is going out with 9?
I dunno but I pray it’s a girl!

14. How old is 16 now?
21

15. When is the last time you talked to 13?
last friday

16. What is 2's favourite singer/band?
Good Charlotte

17. Would you ever date 4?
My gawd! I would jus get smacked but maybe I’ll date her

18. Would you ever date 6?
Anytime Babaay!! woah

19. Is 12 single?
I dunno he might be attached

20. What is 18's last name?
Ong

21. Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 5?
No I guess but friendship…sorry sab!! lol

22. What school does 7 goes to?
Bowen la!!

23. Where does 3 live?
Sengkang

24. What's your favourite thing about 4?
She simply adores my jokes

25. Have you seen 1 naked?
No! (maybe)lol

Rise and awaken!!!

hey peeps...third consecutive day of updating and you are still ingrates...lol
anyway, today is very special becos, it is....NOT YESTERDAY OR TML!!! woah.....

...ok...

i wonder whether i would win the prize for 'worst blogger of the year' or 'most voted to get kicked out of the bloggin world' hahha who cares you ingrates still read this shit...

well for the record i didnt mean to contrdict myself yesterday... i do freakin miss her!! aww...but...ha she misses me to so its even...hahah

i recently developed a problem..a real serious problem...(not an std u sick shit!) but worse...hahah....i bleed...from my.....NOSE!!! lol...and its not cause i look at girls often or watch porn...d'uh...but its cause....i think abt her...can u belief that...

girls...next time u wanna see if your guy is thinkin abt you, watch the blood..lol..or maybe he might be thinkin bout your mother instead..lol...ha perv...

i also find this blog gettin rather rhetorical with the issues and questions as such i have determined that from today onwrds i will attept to get even worse...hahah....aint that a sweat breaker...

or big issue for today...GE!! General Elections...dun wanna say too much...later kena public apology than all of y'all will know who the man behind this stupid blog is...but its been interestin seeing rallies and stuff goin on...ppl are gettin so desperate to win that they send trucks to travel around the whole singapore....lol..and you call me lame..lol...anyway its been a big thing ever since merdaka but you noe wat...i cant be bothered because of the structural system of the diplomacy which tends to be a waste of time because we nv will noe what the whole damn thing is abt...so give it a rest...want our vote....GIVE US MORE MONEY!!!! lol...hahaha

life is full of joy and shit but...w/o humour we will die...so ingrates jus continue readin i hope that you will gain enlightenment one day to understand that everytime you read this blog you jus wasted a few minutes of your unproductive life to turn stupider...lol...ahahha

PEACE OUT!!!

Its all you!

hey faithful ingrates of this blog...woah!!
>its that time of the month again...I DUN HAVE PERIODS!!...but ya..lol....

ok wat did i mean by tt is: in a given month i would be so boody boreded tt i would blog..lol...ha...

well all my entries has been abt life and shit tt happens in it but today it would be different....it would be abt the shit that happens in life...yep you heard me....ingrate...lol..hahahaha!!

this is abt the closest you can get to really meetin me but ya..lol.hahaha

as you may already noe i can tend to get quite dry with humour so much so that i have to drink water and it doesn really help with all the drinking....yep...ttz me

ok so lately the weather has been gettin on my nerves man its like raining than sunny again...cant it jusbe more organized or sumthin...send everyone a copy of its bloody schedule...tt would safe the money being paid for the fat dude on tv tellin us all the fake weather...SOB....

i am also greatly troubled cause i am longing for....ha for you to read this crap and den get troubled too....my sentiments to you sucka!!! muahahahah......

i dun even noe why ppl read this shit..lol...anyway i miss someone real bad man...its like hurtin..you noe pain....yeah the thing you feel when someone shoves somethin up yr ass...yup pain....i kinda miss her man...cant belief i am writing this...i am turnin emo! no!!!lol

not worth it man....i am goin strong with the dark side...hahah

i really feel like killin someone but i jus dunno who...maybe it shld be you....lock yr windows cause i noe what you did last summer...lol...hahaha sorry.....hahaha...ok...maybe i shld jus stop....

see you soon my ingrates....soon you will upgrade to be my minions hahah...this is brainwashin aint it...lol..ahahaha.....

ok good bye!!!!!!!!

aint it sad?

hey...my name is isaac but that aint really important... today i have a sad announcement to make...and indeed its sad... so sad...so much that it has sad written all over it...yup...if you haven by now gotten the idea....thats sad...cause how can you not get that all i am saying is sad....

OK!!!!!!!!

enough of that crap...lol....hahaha...pissed you off real well (eddy is probably gonna smack me anyhow...)

today its all abt the wordplay my friends.. life has always been bout the words and all the stupid things we say... we hurt others and get hurt only to utter these few words, "i'm sorry"

as the song goes "sorry seems to be the hardest word"

it should be tt way man... we can't just expect forgiveness......now that the exams are near, i hope i would not be stuck in the position of saying i am sorry.... life for me has hit rough patches and i bet for everyone else out there to.... our relationships with friends and family....God....

Give me novocaine man........let me sleep and escape things through cos my friends, reality is so real it aint really tv no more...if you get wat i mean... survival of the fittest, nah! survival and ttz it....everything is abt survival man....keepin the scraps you have and smirking at the poorer folks....ha...evil i noe...so yeah...lifes not fair.... i aint tokin bout the notes in the wallet but really life man...we cant just say life will pass day by day....one day life aint gonna be there no more...than....all the best to wherever you're goin....think abt your life....have you accomplished what you wanted before you die the horrible death predestined on you....May God have mercy on your soul!

Pride of our School....

(disclaimer: this post is mainly for the debate family...will post up soon..lol...)

a very good evening my fellow debators. i am wrote this right after i came home. this is more or less a letter of gratification for each and every one of you. But please allow me to first give an overall thank you speech.

I am firstly really grateful to our teachers for allowing us to participate in the julia gabriels. I have certainly learnt a lot from this experience. I have taken back so much knowledge about debate that i probably would have never heard off if i had turned the offer down. I am also deeply grateful to the team members and coaches who have come along side us and guided and nurtured us all the way. this is specially for the debators who they themselves have proven to be very powerful speakers and definetly we have made a name for ourselves here in the debating world.

i will now move on to individual thanks because each and every one of you is different. let me start with the youngest.

Amanda. You have proven yourself time and time again through this whole course of the debate. you eloquence has certainly swept a few of us off our feets from time to time. I appreciate your willingness that you have given in participating. I will be frank and not acknowledge that your becoming is due to me however it was due to yourself. i am glad to see that you have matured a lot through this course when yr brains are really exercised. I believe that with the many future debates, you will be nurtured and have what it takes to be a best speaker through and through. I am definetly proud to have worked with you and I would love to see more of your debates soon.

Eugin Wee. You have always brought a bright cheery side to the team. I want to congragulate you on your win of 3 best speaker positions in the debates you have come out of. I have to admit to achieve such a feat is really amazing especially since none of your seniors won any. You are a very good substantive and reply speaker and continue doing what you are good at. Let this experience help you grow in confidence and ability to convey your points clearer and improve yr oratorical skills. I have seen you debate since SRJC and have seen how far you have progressed from there. From being a nervous word swallower to a confident public speaker has shown that you do have what it takes to be a good debator.

Jonathan. You have been a fellow third speaker of mine and at many time we are loggerheads however you have never seem to amaze me everytime you take the floor. I understand that many a time nerves get the better of us but i am really proud that you have improved. you and eugin have been the real debate juniors of mine ever since SRJC but i have seen you really grow. I have appreciated the times that you have really shown an interest in debates. You have taught me patience because i learn that people are different and we can't just expect people to be what we want them to be. I agree many time i have higher hopes for you because i know one day you can and will be the best you are. Disregard peoples comments cause sticks and stones can break our bones but words would never do so. Let not your dignity be lowered lest your weaknesses be exposed.

SuXin. I had a great time working with this fellow friend and debator of mine. We have been dreaming of this moment forever and finally it has come. Indeed we have learnt each others strength and weaknesses but nonetheless we make a good team. We do have disagreements at times but the process still runs smoothly. You have been a source of inspiration in your field od substantive and i have aspired to be as good as you however i soon acknowledge that we are actualy fighting a different battle. Our battle field is not on the same level. I have seen how you have promoted in your levels ever since sec 1 and am really happy for you. We have one more battle and thats the O's so ya work for it and don't back down.

Alvin. I am really happy to have met you and finally get a bloody coach la. You have really shown me and impressed me with your thinking prowess and lame ability and i guess i am really proud to say that a friend like you will last. You have inspired me to take debating to another level and really look at things in a different light. I will be looking forward to meet you again after army.

Aquila. Thanks for the week of help when we were missing the element of a coach. I thank you for your help given and acknowledge your presense with us. Thank you.

to wrap up...

Life is never a bed of roses. I hope that we have learnt a lot through this experience and that we will never give up this love for deabting. We came back with all the bondings and finally end up as a family. I thank everyone again who has supported us. rember this. What does not kill you, only strengthens you..... Bowen Debate is here to stay...!!

Busy with life!

Right... i aapologize to the many who have been checking up on my blog and not getting to read any post...rte now feeling down and stressed...O's this years...Dad Screaming at me as i type this down...damn sian....can't be bothered anymore....i also feel the hurt for a friend...i understand what you are going through and i bet everyone around you will be with you everystep...do not fear yr subjects but let them fear you...gotta go...bye

first installment of a trilogy...

ok i am attemping to awe the readers of this lame blog with a photo journal of a few events so u wont bug me to keep updating...this shld keep u busy for a while.....
the first one is abt CNY 2006! yup....money money money.....
ok rte anyway this chinese new year has been a productive one...i have reaped quite a lot that will go into the use of chrsitmas gifts and valentines and birthdays....lol.....ok we had the usual gathering a week late cause my brother was admitted into the hospital but he is ok now......i took a few pictures of food in particular....c'mon u look at me u sure noe food is my forte la...lol......ok so here are the pictures....

ok...this is the traditional lo hei...its a lot cos my family quite big la...lol..

this is my portion....of course it was onli the beginning to greater things

this is good stuff man....its taupok with lots of feeling topped with sweet sauce i must have had ten over....lol...no la...maybe 50...oops..

this is damn good cheese cake made by my cousin...the layer of cheese is damn nice la.....must try...lol

ok...this is the last picture...there was much more food but i dun want all yr key boards to short circuit when u salivate.....this picture got meaning noe....it shows u after eating, u still wont get enlightened and the point of you being what u eat has already been established as rubbish!...cause i look nothin like a lo hei...ok...tt was lame...but tt is wat this blog is all abt...enjoy the next two installments....see u guys soon....

second installment...

the second installment today is abt the show i not stupid too...its a damn good show....funny and touching....i enjoyed the brilliance of jack neo who was able to put two of such emotions together making u cry and laugh at the smae time....its a good show parents to come and learn to understand their children....we cna see from the examples in the show how ignorance can cause a child to go astray.....sad thing but true....many kids out dere lack that love that all of us need....we are also human beings and not jus accidents that occured due to carelessness on the part of the parents.....indeed our lives need care and love....i encourage those who read this to reflect upon it as valentines day approaches....maybe u can help encourage yr frenz and keep the fire within them burning......anyway.....this is a good show to watch and i urge everyone who hasnt watched it to go spend the money to watch....don be lame!...lol....i would end this with a quote that a young boy said to his fater regarding why he stole...."i took $500 to buy one hour of your time to come see my performance..." must we go to that extent for u than to wake up and understand us.....

third installment......

ok...so this is the third entry of my photo-blog....i hope the pictures much earlier were clear.....this entry is the neighbourhood ginna！ok rte now i have been trying to keep fit by running and what a better way to do it with a bunch of friends who like me also dun ha much to do.....so we decided to go runnin....aint that cool...anyway here are some of the neighbourhood ginnas!

this is me and sab,

this is our two advert promoters, cai ling and afifah

this is the bei-hoon-kia of poh huat....mr Britney!

ms soh wei lun and the kelong girl who got us messed up...LIMIN!!!

this is abt all the neighbourhood ginnas now....but the base of this club is growin.....so those in school who wanna join us jus tell us and we will arrange somethin with you....hope u enjoyed the trilogy...

ok....lately....its been abt a week since i blogged...yup..ttz my watch(thanx ed) anyway i have been busy bloggin on another blog...not mine but my frenz...so yeah.....

i have been chillin for quite awhile this week...slackin cause the new year is comin...that jus brings abt the sound of money (ka-ching!) anyway...i hope that this year the stcks will increase man...valentines is also on the way....i a crackin my brains out to get her a gift....hope she doesnt read this...so to play on the safe side i aint gonna write down my options....lol....recently stumbled upon the john mayer trio album! yep u heard me....lol....many of my frenz dun think he is any good but wth...lol...if u can play like him...woah! i love the rendition on I Got A Woman by stevie wonder....its actually the song kanye west used for the backing track of goldigger!!!thats another good song but the original still rocks my socks off.....yeah....i rate this CD 4/5 stars...lol....yup you heard....get it now!!.....

well thats all for today...rather short post but yeah read it! thank you and good night

Boring post for today

so hi again....really rare that u get me blogging on subsequent days unless i would eventually make money out of it...so ya....its been long since i ever toked abt anythin sensible...actualy almost nv...but wth why break tradition...lol....i am not gonna blog bout days cause i think its stupid to live each day like its gonna end......jus totally dumb...... anyway this mindless crap was brought to you by moi....lol.....so ya.....peace!!

Back to rattle....

hey, back to rattle my mouth off......last entry was 7 dec....cool eh....lol...ok so this is the first for the year lets try makin it sensible....
ok first up, the podcast thing....lol....i have been unsuccessful in doing a podcast (i bet sabrina is jumpin for joy, but wth!) so sad eh?....lol....i cant find the equipment....sad case....anyway will keep trying
So lets see all i have been doing lately is really going to school and back...attempting to study but failing....slacka!! anyway school has been the same.....now sec 4 already!!!! O's are here this year.....just another stupid examination to pollute our young fragile minds with studyin....so ya must study.....why does the world have to rely so much on pieces of paper that i can photostact with the aunty at the bookshop for a mere 5c.....crazy rush for all this.......anyway another thing lately is my poor bass......my darling bass has not been polished and cleaned since my last performance.....trying to get performance pictures up but cant find any (RANDY!!)....thanx li lin for the encouragin tags its really cool u like the song.....its good! tryin to find new podcast to put up online......Mark Hoppus seems to be really busy........the whole itunes database is failing me.....stupid......anyway regardless apple is still the best.....really contridicting for me rte now cause i am using a windows xp server.....no money than give more to bill gates la.....nvm....lol..... school still gives me the creeps....not used to it at all.....gettin someone like me out of bed in the early mornings can be a hassle.....i have to like place toothpicks between my eyes to get them open....lol......i bet many ppl out dere would jus be waiting for me to extend the invitation for them to slap me awake....eddy i bet u are topping that list....but anyway....not so soon....i can still make it.....recently i found another likin in getting boreded...really....thats like the best thing that can happen to me....to get boreded.....realieves the stress out of me.....its not like i can do anything productive with the lame brain of mine....lol.....yeah and i have become less lame....now can walk more....oops....lol.....ha smack me!!! lol.....anyway before i continue with more senseless rattlin, lets save this for another time.....causes the suspense for those who wanna murder me for not updatin....anyway ciao my readers.....if i have any