hello again... beautiful day..i am writing my second entry in abt one hour or two...who cares...anyway i have evolved into a walking time bomb... a blender mixed with feelings, emotions, and me! so yeah i will have that frap to go with cream please..
so you see that i can get mad and i hope for the tolerance that all my friends can give me.... i will blow and than simmer as though i am crazy...but i am...
i feel the urge like i said to be evil yet i have learnt that goodness is a better option... i dunno anything anymore... i dun feel like talking... can i totally outkast myself like last time... can i bear the consequences of my choices... i dunno and there is no one to really tell me... so ya.... i am lost...
LOST! did u hear me? i got lost because of the crap i had to suffer... and am still suffering... why cant i be happy for myself... its just in me to still care... but why? cant i be cold and heartless... its difficult to understand people... they seem to love masking themselves up and when they face someone who turns insane like me they go scared and avoid... well... i bring reality and that can suck so ya... ha...
its difficult and never easy... dunno why i am still typing because i really exhausted all that i had to say.. i preached my lesson but it hasnt come to mind... so yeah... before i preach something i cant live i would stop here and allow a breather... this isn't the last of me... i will....
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