life

i guess life for many can mean different things...like fun, enjoyment, MONEY, lust, pleasure, and many more....
my life has hit lots of bumps recently thus causin my aims to faulter... being 15 aint easy man...one more year away from "sweet" sixteen? i can hardly wait.....
why must life suck everytime things are goin well....why cant fairytales be depicted thru the lives of us...no doubt some ppl get all the fun they want...but wat abt those self reliant ppl.....in particular me....yes i am rantin and rantin abt how MY life in particular aint the best thing on the earth....
everytime i look at psalms 22...i cant help but notice a guy of the same number of problems but of a different degree....."Eli Eli Lema Sabachtani"....
thanx to knowin God, i can haf full assurance tt it will go well one day.....He has alwasys provided an answer and tt is why i can trust in His providance even though it may appear to be NO...
i dunno why...but i jus wish somethings in my life jus change.....i still am living with regrets and i realli am sorry to the one i let down....i nv knew things would be this way.......if only you could forgive me....i am realli guilty....i am sorry.....my heart aches as i type this....tears are spearing tru the keyboard....plz i seek yr forgiveness.....i still sought after you as a confidant for nothin i can do will make it seem right anymore.......
plz jus one more chance.....if onli we could say...tIl dEaTh Do Us PaRt....