Pilgrmage

i am in this world but not of it...

itz sumthin tt i had to grasp the last 3 days at bible trail. how can i be in this world and not be of it.......i guess for myself many a times i am strapped on firmly to the world...in the way i behave.....in the way i speak....in the way i feel.....

many things in this world jus seem sooo rite la.....like fakin yr frenz....basically itz jus lyin la.........many times it seems that lyin is an acceptable mtd of gettin our selves out of situations......again this is by worlds standard.....white lies and stuff well.....i like to say that lies are jus lies la no matter wat colour u paint them they will still be lies.....

u see thru such an example tt it is realli hard not to get caught up with the world and its ideologies....wat the world puts across to us isnt at all the same as how God wants us to react therefore if we react similarly how den as christians can we be different.....how can be say that we are set apart....

if we do so and still noe we are holdin on i guess we are shortchangin our selves......the bible says that if we love God, we cannot love the world.....and vice versa.....our tresures are stored up in heaven and awaitin onli if we are not of the world....

we all await the day that Christ will return and present us the crown of life but if we cannot give up the things of this earth than christ will say that he nv knew us at all......

this is abt all i wanna share will indeed update u on wat else i learn le....so chill

I know a girl

She puts the colour inside of my world

But she's just like a maze

Where all off the walls all continually change

And i've done all i can

To stand on the steps with my heart in my hands

Now i'm startin to see

Maybe itz got nothin to do wif me

Here is another nice song by John Mayer a very talented guitarist...i was intrigued to hear he won song of the year even though he is like underrated and stuff.....anyway....i think i realli relate to the first stanza of the song...i was probably in a sense suckered in...i was to immersed in the wrong thing that caused confusion and den one day i jus realised i was in a sense being a fool on the corner of the street...btw ttz the title of the song i'm workin on lol.....so must have some publicity...lol...nah but anyway this kind if feelin realli sux la.....where we feel tricked or fooled into something tt is but mere fantasy.....i guess itz wat keeps us goin on la...lol....anyway i am bloggin til here.....til we meet again

so you stole my heart,

and left me a ransom letter

demanding I treat you better,

should I ever want it back

and now I'm all alone

dreams are all forgotten,

memories all turned rotten,

it's not the same on the phone

so what's up girl?

things haven't changed a bit since we last met

I bet my bottom dollar you're the best,

girl that I ever had

I never wanna lose you

so what's up?

hey~~ this is soo not written by me but itz a lovely song.....guess many a times we feel this way on how the one we hold close jus drift away leavin our sides withouth a proper explanation.....life like that....we must have the down sides to understand the upseides of it of course sometimes it goes upside down la......anyway i hope dose with problems with whether a boy fren out dere or girl fren and u guys get into some problems, don't forget that there is a God who allows such things to happen for a reason.....sometimes itz for us to grow....u may ask why God must let us learn the hard way....well....He has a plan for us....everythin that u do or happens in yr life itz not jus a miracle....itz because He has a purpose for everyone out dere.....whther u are big or small...white or black...short or tall....it doesnt matter cause ultimately we are His creation and He loves us no matter wht.....so with that i hope u guys out dere facin this problems jus chill......peace

Crazy?

this world is a messed up place.....with us especially......we are the messed up ppl who make this place messed up beyond our own control......now i understand why a flood had to wipe out the human race durin noah's time......

we as man have still yet to understand fully wat carin for others realli means.......we are still as stuck up as ever.....must we wait for another disaster before we change?

lately my life hasnt been the same....really confused abt myself...i noe i don normally tok abt myself in my postings but i jus cant seem to pour out this emotions.....

i haf done many things that do not glorify God. first it was my crappy results that i jus acheived....i really regret not doin better....havin to see my parents worry sooo much realli sux......cant i be a smart kid like everyone else....not for anythin else i am jus toooo darn lazy....i jus don get it why up to now i still aint bothered to change.....y must things turn out this way...

i have also done wrong to many ppl who cared abt me......i snubbed them, humiliated them, made them feel like ingrates when i am the one who realli fits into all this categories myself.....i haf been changin and not for the better either. y must i go to the extend of hurtin those who love me and whom i love......sometimes is jus lie in my bed and think til those tears flow down my cheeks on why i have become the monster i am.....itz like my life opened to the chapter of dr jekyl and mr hyde.......however i am missin that antidote.....

my life has been a spiritual wreck too....i haven been walkin closely with God....i alwaes pray to someday be like david....a man after God's heart but i nv keep to my hopes....i cant walk alone in this world....i need God...i jus dunno how to go abt it.....i jus don take the damn initiative......my heart pains everytime i noe i forget.....can anyone help me?

i guess this is indeed an entry tt i will nv forget.....will constantly look at it so i will remind myself to press on and take the first step to go abt acknowledgin him.......

hope u ppl have a good night and God Bless.....

Revenge is soooooo sweet.........muahahaha

how many of us love the taste of sweet revenge?
well like every human being, when someone gets us, we jus wanna stab the guy in the back sooo hard that all his guts jus fly all over the screen.....

this is how the whole the last episode of starwars: the revenge of the sith. potrayed to all who were gluein thier eyes on the big screen....

itz really cool to finally get to watch the missin episode after 30 plus odd years....however sad to say the endin was crappy....i wont wanna spoil all those ppl fun who wanna watch by tellin u the whole endin but nevertheless, i still rate it 8/10.

now that skools out, i aint in any mood to celebrate at all....the whole concept of havin to test how much u noe jus plain sux la......haix...i dunno why i got those crappy results but i am seriously determined to study this hols except when i go back to australia to relax for a while.....dunno wat to do....

on the whole topic of revenge, a few ppl have been jealous of a few things tt i have achieved (plz be mindful that this aint revenge itz jus an expressed opinion). i have been tryin to get thru them but somehow they jus wanna be in tt dream world of theirs....anywae the point i am tryin to make is tt revenge aint sweet cos it jus makes u look realli dumb jus look at wat happened to the sith lords....they suffered after all rte?....by continuin to try aint take revenge will jus make u look very childish and immature? vengeful ppl out dere....u sure u wanna risk at lookin stupid?

"vengeance is mine" said the Lord.

be mindful tt if u take it upon yrself to do such despicable acts, u will be pronouncin judgement upon someone. and here is a reality check for u, you aint more superior than anyone so get it straight or else u will jus be the butt of the joke.....

anywae guys and gals out dere, chill out....hang loose....have fun.....peace!

i am soooo back

hey people.......i am soooo back with a new look......nice huh.....jus tryin for the traditional black.....so enjoy.....i would try to blog more but for now....chill

i am bored i am boredddddd

Yox.... i noe i am so disturbed by the world and stuff lol big deal........ anyway i have been realli tired...... itz so sad simple plan is over..... they rawk............i don wanna be told to grow up........ now jus updated GC on my ipod..........i dunno wat to write..... usually scoldin the world and makin a fuss but for once i am like super boreded.........lol anyway will end here

TeLL me WATZ wrong wiF society.......

SIMPLE PLAN!!!!! last wednesday i was one of the fortunate Singaporeans to be a part of the simple plan phenonmenm.............being a huge fan of simple plan, i jus had to catch it........it was like a dream come true for me cause i nv expected them to come but nuff said lets get down to buisness......

can anyone tell me wat is wrong with society......i see so much crap happenin around me that i jus cant stand it.......ppl not carin about one another and jus wishin that one another would disappear from the face of this earth and stuff.......is it humanely rte?

where do kids get the idea tt killin is bad and stuff.......why do teens think tt almost everythin shld jus circulate around sex.......is it rte.......

media is the problem whether thru games or tv..........everyshow has a sleazy scene or an actress who is seductive in all her actions.....does sex realli sell that well? i guess being a teen and stuff yes i am no doubt exposed to all this crap and it comes frm everywhere............no doubt it arouses a young man's senses but it is jus morally wrong..........

many ppl think that adultery is jus sleepin around and stuff but wake up to reality......... adultery can even come in the form of lustin after someone.......aint tt a scary thought.......logically speakin it is possible to commit adultery by jus visualizin wat ever...............i hope peeps who bring my blog get snapped back to reality i jus tot i'd share this with ya guys........

PEACE OUT!!!!!!!!!!!

New Year for everyone....

Yo peeps........so long no see rte lol......well i have been busy and mostly to sick to update i have barely recovered but i tot i shld jus update u guys on my situation so far
well......as the chinese new year jus started i have started on my annual money collection scheme.....lol.....but don get it wrong i aint out to con those innocent ppl's money but jus to keep close to my herritage in collecting money frm the married peeps.......it realli shows how married chinese couples are realli stressed........givin wif a smile but realli achin within.....well thanx anyway so yah the collection has been good but tiring and i got a huge big blister on my feet frm generatin my stupid juices and allowin them to take charge of my genius mind in connin me to play soccer bare footed in the basket ball court lol super dumb now tt i look and feel the pain well.......nvm tt......anyway monday is valentines day well......as usual i will be at home watchin tv lol...happy doin tt too anyway....so watz the fuss bout this valentines day beside it being Val's burfdae......i guess nothin much huh.....i like to think tt when you are attached or married valentines time day shld be everyday of your married life cos u shld love him/ her so wat is the big fuss of valentines...........nvm probably someday i may realise the importance but wat is the rush/ lol i am still young and happy so yah i wanna keep it dat way before all my skin sag and my chin reaches the floor. sorry those old ppl who read blogs and stuff yah........don fret i will look like u guys someday but meanwhile too bad for u
lol....i m so mean anyway gettin tired lol or rather lazy.....tml is another round of money takin....i hope....lol but anyway u guys rest well too......PEACE OUTTA HERE!!!!!

My BaCk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

heyss~~
today was a realli borin day cos literally nothin interesting happened exxept in chem class.......we were like supposed to learn somethin that i souldnt understand too but hadd to do with evaporation and cooling in some glass but anyway durin the lesson ms lee like got pissed la and a few clowns broke like a pippette those realli huge kind of pippettes and also a beaker or sumthin who cares........lol........well after skool went to the doctors to get my stupid back done by to my surprise polyclinic doctors realli are lousy and impatient ppl.........e guy who like served me went thru everythin so fast he didnt even care to probe abt anything he was like so lazy la.........jus issued pain killers and a massaging oil.for wat? i have been like takin those ever since my back hurts la dunno wat is wrong with tt lazy bugger..........anyway he say go back in a weeks time if still pain i bet i would haf tooo la even now i am feelin it.......anyway my dad is wanting me to go for an x-ray after he comes back frm dunno where also i think australia.......there is something cool tt happened like yesterday and that is someone gave us a drumset.......woah!!!!......but sad to say the quality realli yucky la.....but cant complain given mahx......lol......so today i get to learn tt polyclinic doctors are lazy and good for nothin.........anyway i gotta go......bb

BOREDOM RUNS THRU MY VEINS

Boredom a term used by many youths today.......i guess i use it personally too.......i know some of you may be askin how come my blog posts are all bout stuff that aint abt my week or my day like how normal blogs will function..........well i write abt such stuff cause it impacts me a lot and they are stuff that i go thru......like boredom....especially boredom cause when we are bored we tend to think of stuff tt may be interesting but wrong......therefore i jus wanna share tt many a times it does happen to me......when stuff like dat happens i try and focus my mind on God and His word but it is truly hard......i haf faced problems in many areas and even in areas tt u may not think i face.....i noe how hard it is to lose something you treasure.......i recently lost something close to me and i haf been very sad abt it but i haf come to acknowledge tt there has to be some sort of purpose why such a thing happens...... by knowin tt this purpose has to do with wat God has planned for me it kinda takes a bit of the pain away but i still feel the aches every now and den.............it is indeed hard no matter wat u say but i believe onli God can ease the pain........no one else can not even by our own human understandin can we ever ease a pain tt we haf felt....i wanna realli tell u guys out dere who haf problems tt if u need prayer plz let me noe........i guess tt is all so bb

All in a day's work........NOT!!!!!

hey peeps......
i am happy to say i mange to share the gospel to my fren, charles.........i hope you guys can pray that God will work within him.........
anyway gettin on with today......it was an ordinary day in skool for nothin extraordinary ever happens but as soon as i stepped into Mr Goy's class my nightmare started......... he finished the whole chpt of indices but that wasnt the bad part........the horror came when we were given our hmwk of abt 23 questions? who cares how many i jus know itz a lot.........fortunatley after that during MT, my chinese teacher didnt come so manage to do like half.........but it leaves me to questions why is sooo much hmwk given........they always say it is to help built our foundation but is that true or are some teachers jus sadistic.........give me your view in my tag board kkz.......lol......like forum lol anyway yah skool today was interestin yet borin too......i guess it was onli interestin because i manage to share the gospel. my fren was very happy in hearin wat i had to say and fully understanding it but he did not give me an answer yet......i told him no rush and jus take his time to thik abt it.......so plz pray with me tt he will accept Christ as his Lord and Saviour like we as christians out dere did..........i guess tt is jus half the day but this is the onli time i can post my stuff up anyway thatz it til tml so yah bye.........

My new look

Hey y'all....
i wanna say a big sorry to those who haf been faithfully readin........i am realli very truly sorry.......i hope u like the new change in my layout....... i noe the words are a bit small but yah these is to compensate to the lack of space.......
Recently we have read of the tsunami and how it killed many.........i would like to suggest to us to jus think and reflect back on our actions to frenz, relatives, parents, siblings......etc...... For myself i have been thinkin more on my walk of faith with God........Indeed i ahve seen some changes in me with the help of my peers some good and some still not up to thier expectations......i am realli sorry if i ahve stumbled you in a way or two.........but looking back at the tsunami......many died not being to see the new year........it has indeed been something saddening but it has brought us a few lessons......one, have we taken anyone for granted? sometimes when we do something wrong and realise our mistakes we still try and cover up thinkin that the rite chance will come along to say 'sorry' or 'i love you' to our various peers and parents and especially those tt are something special to us.........wat if we were one of those affected and couldnt say 'sorry' to a brother you wronged or a spouse we argued with?........i guess i have also committed this mistake before and i wanna urge you out there not to think that you will always haf time tml to do such impt and meaningful things.......As a christian i noe tt God can and will take your lives away anytime because we are merely creatures who are filled with sin that are created by Him.....i am not suggestin that God put sin in us but we chose to sin against Him.....that is the truth of the matter that we are sinners..........hard to believe but yes.......puttin it in an easier way whatever tt we do that goes against God is known as sin..........but thankfully He has provided a way out and that is thru His son Jesus Christ who died on the cross........He died to redeem us but obviously this isnt for evryone.......no matter how much God loves us, if we do not accept Him as our Lord and Saviour and tt He is the only way, we will nv be saved. a greater joy is to know tt He will give us eternal life that after we die we may surpass judgement and will spend eternity wif Him in heaven..........wat i jus said are not a lie or a joke......laugh at it but at the end of the day our lives will be indeed spent differently......i noe i may be very strong bout this but it is the truth..........well.....we have different mindsets therefore the choice is yours.......this sounds like a starwars movie lol......anyway peace out man

you've got served

Hey sup y'all...
actually i don realli noe who reads this thing man...lolx...itz like i don realli think i told no one bout this anyway yeah dis days been kinda busy man....practices and stuff and like jus realised tt i've got like 3 days left. man! like i am realli nervous and stuff man but like good news today i manage to receive 3 responses to my PSS letters adn raised an xtra $160 *bling bling* well realli glad tt ppl are interested in my life and stuff. wel this cash i hav kinda dedicated it to e rest of the team mates who cant but praise the Lord for those who responded. Anyway dilys if u get to read this....thx for prayin for me and thx for understandin me....u rawk......well i bought a new vcd (cos the dvd was outta stock) itz entitled "you've got served" itz like this dance competition thingy....kinda like drumline.....but itz totally awesome.....too bad i cant breakdance cos i'll probably end up in a wheelchair....lol....massive achin on my wretched back but cant be bothered wif it no more man....haix tml is bible trail practice and i hope to be able to play cs b4 i leave my hand achin to get to tt keyboard lolx.....haix wat can i do now? hmmm...... actually nothin much to say no more but i thank God for those out dere who also feel passionately abt missions cos u guys rawk......probably go advertise my blog now...lolx....PEACE

Out of this world event!!!

While today started with devotion on Rom 12: 1-2. it was interesting to find the phrase " an out of this world experience" to be actually meant and in literal sense. many a times our actions somehow jus nv cease to make others laugh and cry and sometimes die.... i was realli reminded how i as a christian shld at tll time remember tt my actions shld be tt which glorifies Him and not man...all of us noe none of us are perfect but we somehow jus don realli give a damn at the end.
besides the devotion, we celebrated Sarah's b'day again but now wif the inclusion of a mango cake...so cool...well then practiced til out guts almost came out but i kept reminding myself wif
Eugene's fav phrase..itz all for the glory of God...
today somehow was kinda sad cause i didnt get to watch the incredibles but i kinda felt jealous when my bro got to go but anyhow i jus didnt noe how to react to the situation...ended up kinda pissed but then realised tt it wasn't realli worth it at all....fancy gettin angry over a cartoon...haix..
today osho kinda happy cause finally got to get hold on the simple plan cd ....lol ...finally after so long...thx roy for transfering it to my ipod.....
well....i think after reflectin over today i think it wasnt realli right for me to get angry at some one and i would like to apologize if tt person gets to read this but i think there were things both of us shldn't hav said and i wanna say sorry......
anyway got to go listn to my new songs and enjoy WELCOME TO MY LIFE.....this is so goin to make gwen jealous lol but u can look for me for the songs when u ready to return me my money!!! lol so yah chill out guys cause i'm outta here

Watz wrong wif this world?

like my heading says watz wrong wif the world? many times we face crap in our lives everyday... ... sometimes literally we step on crap but most times itz cos crap jus exist in the ppl around u. not offending anyone in any way though. wat i am abt to say is not a verbal attack on certain ppl who think they are jus to smart.

well these ppl who think they are above the average in society or hold a high position some times u jus literally suck! all of us haf personal commitments in the form of a lot of stuff like relationships, positions in the society, and religiously too. Like me i hold my believe as a Christian to be top piority in my life. for those who don't realli noe i am goin to shout out specially to u guys. a Christians job is to go share the gospel to many out dere who don't noe and this has to be top piority in our lives or particularly in mine. durin the hols i grab this oppurtunity to try do such stuff and itz cos of the lack of time during the normal skool days. i love God more than any other thing on earth and nothin u can say and do can change me. commitments made personally are to be kept.....and i feel if there is realli no need for xtra stuff y don jus give it a break. i don care who u are ok!!!!


irresponsibility is when one is not prepared to take the punishments when put in a leadership postion..... irresponsibility is when a leader does not care for his/her peeps under them cos showing favouritism is jus a big mark of irresponsibility and jus havin a big post doesnt mean u are anything ok! wake up la!i hate peeps who try and stumble me cos i dont mind givin up the stuff in which i think e person leadin is jus weak so like give it up la........i will quit if itz a mus!!!!!

FREAK OUT!!!!!!!
soli deo gloria( for God's glory alone)