Temporary permanant stage... DIMWIT

2009-03-23T20:00:00.001-07:00

He is no fool.... I ain't one either...

2008-02-09T04:28:00.000-08:00

I ain't dead aight... little shytes who thought i was gone... suck it!

how has the world been for all you homophobic kids huh..... I realised that everytime i open this blog window i get angsty... maybe its just fun.. i would have guessed all of you gave up on poor little me... aren't you guys good friends... anyway... been getting less crappy and more dotty..... see..... yup

ok. as usual i had to blog since its 2008 and seeing that the fad has not died off i was happy to go on mainstream and blog... Been involved with loads of shit recently the biggest being school... you know how it is... SCHOOL ROCKS MY SOCKS..... i love it so much i wrote a blog post about school.....

i can't think of a joke to tell you guys no more.... go get my jokes from sabby aight.. can anyone tell me what has happened? i mean i was gone so long and many have changed eh? well one things still the same.... my trashy mouth aint gonna stop moving even if the radio shack gets blown apart and all they have left is mariah carey....

you know how they say jackie chan has the fastest hands in the east...... STAY AWAY FROM HIM.... i mean anyone with hands like that sure wont do anyone especially the ladies.... come to think of it... having such hands would help LOL....

i can't help but be random i mean how serious can a blog get.. its kinda traumatic if i ever found out ppl still read the shit i wrote... just look thru it quick ok...well its been tough and tiring so i understand if all my friends are busy or if i actually had friends to begin with... Anand do you read my blog?

anyway.... poly year has started coming to an end and its kinda saddening knowing that i have to leave a bunch of people who i hold closely to my fatty coagulated heart... not to mention there would be one or two who just are totally...... i'll let you fill in the blanks...

i realised my blog has no tagboard so for those who wanna say shit go to the comments page yeah... i mean honestly friends or non-friends.. air your views.... i am alrdy publicly humiliated how bad can it be.....

back to the friends i have in poly... the dear few that my fingers can count to.... thanks for being there.... for those who tot you were there.... NOPE YOU WERENT.... for those who cant care less.... yup i know you guys are the ones....lol..i shall not name names lest i get splattered for not putting a name up.... but sometimes people just have to accept the fact that you ain't on someone else's list... yup....

to my friends.... during the hols i hope we meet up to eat shit again... and blog about it... maybe we can all grow fat together on *** and also go vegan like EUNICE LAI SHU TING.... yup... than we can lose weight.... i think some people need that....

oh wells... like this post was meant to be soppy....

anyways... kudos to all the cool chicks and Bangz....

peace out! time for some marijuana, my fav

back for the monthly ritual

2007-10-29T05:57:00.000-07:00

ok. for once. i feel like blogging. but as someone once said, "Blogging is so 2006."
I can't agree more except for the fact that this blog has been good to me. For all my friends who always thought i went missing; this was the only way for them to know i am still alive. life has been not spontaneous for me. i haven't been myself lately. maybe thats why i haven really been talking to you. I'm sorry. Been influenced greatly as well. trying not to conform to peoples' views and behavior has been to overpowering for myself. I guess in and around many people i just don't know how to react or behave. yup. i am feeling a burden on me that ceases to amaze myself everytime i see the doppelganger that hangs over my shoulder. schizophrenic? i am very certain that ain't one of my choices. whether or not the person typing now is truly me and whether the thing i type are truly what i feel that is still a mystery. my rantings are irritating even myself. but this is the only constructive way i can use my abilities to attempt to write feelings. Even Shakespeare had that problem. A good question came up in lecture today. Am i a Hamlet or a Macbeth? I realised i am someone who is patient in the way i deal with people but that always gets the better of me. being nice always results in people taking me as suckers. like hamlet i procrastinate killing and i think that for me is the wisest way to survive in such a world. but a macbeth does not cease to build up in me. the blood shed will be insignificant when that day comes because you will pay. I am boiling up to a limit where it needs no introduction. i am in all capability to make your life a living hell. to torment you til your very own ancestors scream. hell fire brimstone may not be the extent that i go but you will feel the heat from hell. I take it that if you read my blog this may be oblivious. let it not get any more obvious because when that day comes, you are dead in my eyes. my cold self will damn upon you and everyone that stands in destructions path. let there be no mistake.

on a lighter note. i am still in search of my self. thanks my dear for being there to help me. you know i always appreciate you. thank you. but do not worry about the above situation. you know i will never implicate you and this issue will blow over soon.

today is not a funny day for me. this is me just being me.long time no see dark side. leave me not today for woe to me if i should face death i will drag you along. scum.

leaving you for later.

2007-09-24T01:19:00.000-07:00

hey ppl. hows your pezezz whatever that means. i have been so bored during the holidays that i just wrote a song over the last five minutes before blogging. expect it to be crappy. and yeah. check out marie digby on youtube. she rocks!

enjoy my song. disclaimer: ITS FULL OF CRAP (what do you expect in five minutes)

It’s a secret
Of the ages
How things became this way

Going 90
Down the highway
On a dark and stormy day

How ironic
There were airplanes
By my window pane

And I said….

I am waiting
For the lights to go green
Going crazy
Down the halls my dreams
Did you wonder why
I said I was dry
Before we went to school that day
Its cos…
My contacts are stuck in my eye

Things are blurry
Skies are fading
Into myspace

Wondering why the
Dude on friendster
Had a name so gay

I cant facebook
Cause I poke to many times

And I said….

I am waiting
For the lights to go green
Going crazy
Down the halls my dreams
Did you wonder why
I said I was dry
Before we went to school that day
Its cos…
My contacts are stuck in my eye

I just want to see
Which finger you’re pointing at me
This little finger on my right
Where barking dogs don’t bite

This song doesn’t make sense
Its cause I can’t depend
On her ella ella ella eh eh eh
under her Umbrella

I am waiting
For the lights to go green
Going crazy
Down the halls my dreams
Did you wonder why
I said I was dry
Before we went to school that day
Its cos…
My contacts are stuck in my eye

Oh… my contacts..
Bausch and Lomb baby…

Oh … my contacts
Still stuck in my eye
It hurts when I cry

the next month of the SOB

2007-08-07T19:26:00.000-07:00

the year is 2099, life still sucks on planet earth. many have since gone away to the deep trenches of the asylum under the ground. there stood a mad man and only his silhouette can be seen from beneath the fig tree. The man named Goon was only to be a shadow in the figment of imagination of children. Could Goon be who we are? Are we Goon. NO.... but those who just wasted 3 minutes of their life reading this crap.... kudos YOU GOONDO...

ah ha... life still sucks in Isaac world. and i have found the need to feed on blood to keep myself living on the depths of this world. can you actually think that wat i write is serious. for all my loyal devotees to this dysfunctional blog.... Go die! hahahha... oops.. not you sab...

Anyways... the breathe of life cast upon all humans have proven to be a futile objective to keep this morally sick world to be perfect. I have seen people go do crazy stuff through this period of time and that includes knowing EUNICE LAI. oh wells... Eunice read my blog wat... so must take time to call her an idiot... oops...

Ok enough of eunice life goes on....

Ok music has been the core values of the life we are living... yup... go die! sorry learning too much from Tim. music is a good way to live life and to cause life to really be surreal.... its not through that all good things are in music except if the beatles turn gay... necrophiliac gay bastards.... oh wells..... i know music has been an integral part of my life but my music has been slowing down... from emo music to classical... i really dunno what i am looking out for or what i actually want. life can be all but music now that i have been enlightened with the horrid notes produced by the neighbours mouth.....

The reasons why i haven been blogging is precisely the point that my life has been so boring. i have been try ing to rid the world of bastards who want what i have... yes i am boastful and yes i am pretty much bitchy but yeah... DEAL WITH IT SHYTES! oh well. i am sleepy....... ok....

Maybe i should continue this blog post in third person.

ok isaac has been doing many things to try getting his life well to go. Isaac has attempted on many times being a good guy but isaac has the urge to kill. isaac is turning psycho thinking that he can capture the attention of his readers through third person language. are people these days Neanderthals... maybe isaac should give up blogging but isaac has so many loyal devotees who needs to gloat on isaac's stupidty... for all who are about to rock and roll... isaac salutes you..... isaac shall now bid farewell... give isaac time to blog another one soon.... isaac hates all of you.... kudos.....

GO DIE!

back after a few months... still shitty

2007-07-02T07:09:00.000-07:00

less one thinks less he hurts others in the process. it seems that a poetic license has become a crime to many. the ability to express oneself within legal boundaries have gotten even more limited. its real tacky to start of a new post with such a lousy start to the supposed happiness i should have faced the last few months i have been away. its not really been sunshine and lillies every single day. in fact, it has never been for any day. hell freezes over the lives of many who choose to disbelief the existence of God and the existence that men are that trustworthy. I cant seem to be able to say or do things even within legal boundaries to make other happy. I have given myself in to being a minion. that sucks! now that i have gone through a large change that i lost my hair for charity it has revealed loads of stuff to me. dignity ain't all about just the way you look. its more than that. Having a 'do that people recognize as a look of defiance and rebellion is just a misconception to the original meaning why i did this. having to stare down others who think you are on the verge of anarchy. it drives me to insanity that i dunno what i can do. i cant say things to please any and every one. i am who i am because of God and not anyone else. piss off human race and be at your own demise when i take you on with my bald head and the ones i call friends

My Life's Journey

2007-04-26T06:15:00.000-07:00

My Life's Journey (title given by Pei Ying)

Dye me tattoo green
Trace on my life’s journey
Broken hearts and scars
Disfigure my whole being

I thought bleeding would stop the pain
As tears flowed down her face
Watching me delight
As night consumed the day

Crimson down my face
As they turned to look in shame

CHORUS
This is my life’s story
Filled with angst and pain
Though the whole world’s against me
Only she will shout out my name
Just to say “I love you!”

A pint of blood I lost
Just holding broken glass
Sipping down the horrors
I dream of every night

There she’s in the distant
Just calling out my name
Saying those sorry words
It pains me just to dream

I just want to scream
Its driving me insane

CHORUS
This is my life’s story
Filled with angst and pain
Though the whole world’s against me
Only she will shout out my name
Just to say ….

BRIDGE
It’s now my turn to say
I’m sorry
I’ll have to change this song
I’m singing

I love you
It doesn’t matter what the world says
I want to be with you
Even if the world ends today
Because I’ll say…
I love you

starry jaded lives we live

2007-04-24T08:09:00.000-07:00

Starry Jaded lives we live as we peer across the moonlite way hoping for a spark of ingenuity to strike us. lets pray its not lightning. Life is cool to be classified starry and jaded. Starry personifies millions of stars which show how life is really litted and they are millions of choices put out to us just to make life a little more interesting. Furthermore this stars act as guiding lights to shuffle us across this life time so that no black hole is going to suck us in. On the hind side, jaded lifes can kill. Jaded basically means that we are just numb to many practices or beliefs of the world due to our own greed and over indulgence. Being jaded can honestly suck us high and dry.

With that said. Sober lives in this world basically involve us following each star in our life and having the perfect ending which also means we are bloody robots. Unfortunately life aint about the roses and pretty lilies that bloom and grow in and out of season. Life really is about morbit deaths and sinful lives that corrupt the basic humanity of this living entity we call earth. Jaded is the direct translation of our lifes as many of us get so used to inhumane practices or worldy beliefs that live becomes a page torned out of the orbituary page, grey and dead. its true because nowadays people start to argue relativism or post modernism if you like. Both this ideas speak of how we never wil find a true answer. As a result, major warpes theories strive to plague the world we live in and sadly, we are actually accepting these things. to hear how straight after the virginia tech incident, people stood up and out of their shit holes hoping to imitate the shooter. As of this point my heartfelt condolescence to the family and friends of those who were affected by the shooting. But this does not give rest to the fact that we as a race of people are slowly or more susceptable to just accepting anything the one eyed monster broadcast. Please learnt to be discerening to what are the facts adn what are the opinions. Do not let others opinions sway your beliefs but rather learn to see your beliefs as a stronghold to who you are. This post may in itself contain many opinions and you may agree to disagree with me but this are mine opinions and i apologize if in any of this comments i have hurt someone .

...

2007-04-14T22:52:00.000-07:00

Hey this is really emo huh. i was looking at the wonder of this potrait behind me. adorned upon my wall was a story of a luthier who built wonderful violins. each note ringing in splendour of its maker. how i wish it was that easy for everything to be built so beautifully and at such perfection. thinking about the fact that over the last few days i have experienced many things that could not easily be explained in spoken languages. my whole being has nv felt so numb to the things that happened around me. However, God has continued to be faithful in keeping me intact even so when i have been faithless. i thank Him that He has placed so many wonderful instrumental people who have made my life a living orchestra. it just feels that every single step of the way i am failing myself but everyone has been spontaneous in keepin me so filled up. God's love never ceases to amaze even the blind like me. I wanna tell you that regardless of everything that has happened let us stick it out and continue to seek for God's revealation for both our lives. let not others affect our senses lest we succumb to our emotions and lose everything. love is a marathon so much so that if we run too fast we burn out. sometimes baby steps make the whole journey a lot more exciting as we just absorb every thing on our way. Lets do this together and continue to trust in God. I love you...

1st post this year.. aint no giant leap for mankind...D'UH

2007-03-21T06:37:00.000-07:00

alrighty than.... first post of this year....ya ya i know a bit behind schedule so wat...lol...ok dun start throwing your shoes at me. OUCH!!! that hurt you nut... ARRRRR!! ok that was pretty random BUT.... lets put our hands together...(applaud dammit) and welcome back the one and only, the guy who defied all odds, the onli person to have written ssuch a load of crap so far.... ME!!!

who did ya think it was? George Bush ( no offence man... its jus... you!!!)

ok lets see.... what can i blog abt???

well i am free as a bird now not havin to do anythin important except strategically place myself around the house and come to the next stage of my nirvana plan...SLEEP!! eh disclaimer.....NEED TALENT OK!!!

oh for those about to rock and roll and yes i salute u...i dunno how this has referance but i will be enrolling into NP for Mass Comm..... so yeah.... i am the fella who could go to jc but didnt... sorry....i think... i mean yeah i sympathise but you cant blame us rte... if u could... than... ya... ok... ha! anyway school is startin soon but meanwhile i got myself a job... actually no...

dun blame me man... its hard tryin to get back to this online journal shit where ppl read all my esapades and rendeavous that happen on the southern part of portugal...c'mon it aint my fault i have to live a dangerous life... u think crossing the road not dangerous ar... stupid u... becos of u thats why we kena road kill la....fools!!!

i dun think i wrote long enough to justify myself so i am jus going to increase the font size... deal with it you wide eyed buggers... squint eyed you can thank me ltr...... here goess.... wow!!...AWESOME!!! THIS IS THE BOMB...

THIS IS FUN. WOW!! SO BIG... SAD... CANT GO BIGGER.. OH WELLS LIKE WHAT THEY SAY ITS THE FUNCTION NOT THE SIZE... EVSSSS.....

I GUESS I WILL END TODAYS WONDERFUL ENTRY BY SAYIN BYE.

BYE

4 parts to one me

2006-11-27T05:05:00.000-08:00

hello my fellow readers. i have finally come to a total conclusion to attempt blogging everyday.. a new blogskin will come soon so many new changes from me to you = )

moving along to todays entry.. there will be 4 things i will touch on yeah... so get ready

1. Music is my life
2. My little superhero girl
3. Me and my vile durian
4. PROM!!

1. music is my life

Recently i got myself involved with SYFC in the performing arts area and yeah its gotten me quite busy. I am playin the bass guitar for technically 6 days a week. its got me and my priorities straight cos' its really what i wanted to do for the longest of times to be able to serve God through the music i play. it gets really tiring but i hope that i will always remember to realli do everythin for God and the best only! well readers, always go all out and pursue and do everythin to the best of your abilities and don't ever give yourself the chance to look back and say that you are a failure...

2. My little superhero girl!!

First an foremost i wanna say that i am sorry being so busy during the holidays and i know i did something that went against what i said to you initially. But i also want to thank you for understanding and being supportive of me. it really means the world. I promise to write you 4 letters before your camp and promise to spend more time with you whenever i can. i promise to hug and hold you whenever you miss me or need me. I promise to love you for as long as we are together and love you unconditionally. Thank you for being mine. Rock on. My little superhero girl!!

3. Me and my vile durian

As i finished the last of the previous paragraph, my nose started to bleed and yes it is due to the bugger of a absolutely fantastic-buttery thai durian that my daddy bought. so yeah.... anyway i love my durian and yeah its my best friend everytime i am chattin late into the night.... its a nice friend lol...sorry this was just an additional bullshit paragraph... moving on...

4. PROM!!

Prom. the night where nerds, jocks, dickheads, asswipes and the best of friends gather in a bal room to dance their ass off. the day where people who cant dance let their hair down and shake their booties like they did when they first heard michael jackson's "THRILLER" . The night where a cast system existed no more and everyone magically transforms into classy adults in all the suits and pretty dresses. as the dj spins the turntable they become unison as one cohort that has never been.. ok who was i joking... prom was coooller than that ass shaking intro i gave... ya....well prom rocked because we were there... i learnt that we made prom and not prom to us.. we are the one...and we rock!!! Ladies and gentleman... cautious reminder... prom is also the beginning of the end of secondary school life... where we go on our own seperate ways like how our forefathers left malaysia.... we wil be independant... soon we willl fade.... lets hope that don't happen!!

anyway... to end today i just wanna say that secondary school life with all my buds rocked.... i have already started missing it.... well... rock one my mates!! lets get together frequently til we turn all saggy and soggy... peace!!

childrens day!!

2006-10-01T05:09:00.000-07:00

hey people of the blogging world today marks the 1st of October... today i would like to commerate 3 significant events...

1. Grace's birthday!!
2. Last meeting =
3. Childrens day

1. Grace's birthday
today is Grace's birthday (due to personal reasons i shall tell you that grace is '25') yes indeed. so HAPPY BIRTHDAY Grace... will record the song soon... i dun even think you read my blog but heck!!

2. Last meeting
today is a sad day as well because i wont be able to meet her until after the O's... saddening but true.. well i hope you study hard and do the Lord proud and i will be praying and supporting you all the way frm serangoon..lol...<3

3. Childrens' day
this is actually the main focal point to todays entry.. i got this inspiration while i was in the bath and watching mtv after that... today is a day marked out for children all over S'pore and a day to be reminded that i am old.. well... i am still a child wat...lol...anyway children of s'pore get gifts on a day like this and some even get to slave drive their parents for a day.. but is it like this all over the world?

children in less developed countries are still suffering on this day. they are not even aware that a day has been set a side for them.. child pornography is still on a rise... what happened to the "i believe children are our future..." mentality....we hear of sexual exploitaion... poverty... and even how children are used to help bums earn a living... children are human beings and they are not much lesser than you.. remember that you sick shits!!! Jesus said that children will be the greatest in the kingdom of God and anyone who goes to heaven must be like a child, humble and innocent...i urge the world to remember that children are not a tool to make money... children are human beings not any lesser than me or you... pray for this children... get aware!!

isaac!

another boring story

2006-09-22T05:04:00.000-07:00

hello my fellow bored ppl... welcome back to the blog in which you so dearly missed for a good month of your life while u sat on ur asses growin fat. welcome to the hell hole of all u ingrates peace and greeting to you!

anyway with that stupid introduction i am back. but i will onli be here for another one time b4 i am sacrificed to the gods of the bloody o level exams residing in their warm comfy fat ass chairs having a spot of tea while we are left as scraps to feed to the dogs! life has ones again reverted to a mundane state where studyin seems the onli option. and yes prelims jus finished, results sucked, need i say more....

rte todays post will be dedicated to my favourite teacher who i hope will drill me to the grnd b4 i commit suicide. i shall not name that person because she is severely over 40 yup...old! anyway she has been my source of inspiration. being a long winded wind bag has certainly inspired me to be the best i can. her constant encouragements of "go kill yourself" and "hahah too bad" well it paid off i hope... indeed she is the best teacher anyone could have and i dun mean any of that in a sarcastic tone but really those were the words of wisdom for someone who has walked this earth much longer than dinosaurs..yup my dear old-one of a kind- nonchalant heck of a teacher... my inspiration...

anyway things at camp suicide have improved eh... we are all working our butts off to not make life anymore difficult than it is for ourselves...ed still thinks i am beef...ha...anyway that was random...

i am proud to say i am proud of someone who has cried over conversations and got worried about everything under the sun stuck it out well and did her best for the prelims! i am here to extend my big applaus for her....

moving on to the latest news: the weather for tml seems partly cloudly with all the crazy nuts trying their best to organise a crap camp of a holiday...please dun take anythin personally cause i didnt state names and some of this scenarios may be fictional so if anyone dead or alive has the same letters in their name....i was totally coincedental.....ok bull shit jus falling from the sky now...anyway i cant write no more,....i dunno wat to type anymore...wait til my rusted brain has completed the mundane of a life stage meanwhile you ppl get ready for a new revolution that will be led very soon...in camp suicide!!! chill you nuts@@

seriously cranky!

2006-08-15T05:10:00.000-07:00

my fellow friends i bid you greetings from my very own hell hole!

tomorrow is the oral exams! bloody fast la!

panicky? nah!

planning to bull shit!

dun ask me about the spaces i ain't sure so...

anyway life so far? very much the same except a drastic change in my talk time...it seems my mobile phone would be underused until the O's are over...falling very sick now (not in my head ED!) and yeah it was contributed by the lack of a better half i guess....wonderboy left me for some shit hole yeah...hell was not good enough...well...stupid man!

anyway lost my alter ego, my ability to write songs and it seems my life! has become nothing but MUNDANE! i dunno what to say or feel but it aint no matter no more...i guess i aint emo! well maybe....haha! things between ppl have been about the same maybe i am becoming sensitive or the whole world is but yeah same o same o! cant imagine if you were to go to france! akon will so be my trash hold! its a bit the difficult to know any longer how i should write all this trash but i guess i would not be blogging for an uber long time soyeah...well the internet is full of other trash go make yourself at home... dun really think i would be missed much...

stagnant mobile; too chicken a boy to make the call!!

dont know why...

2006-08-07T05:10:00.000-07:00

hey peeps its been another long time since i started blogging but yea well...anyway been going thru a lot since the last time i blogged some good and some bad but it doesnt really matter now... todays entry will come free and easy wherever my fingers go on this keyboard.

the moment we were born and could speak we started to question. and many of this questions seemed irrelevant to the adults cause none of them gave a damn on why the sky was blue or why rain fell and didn't rise... but it seems that we have become the very adults we detested. we cant really be bothered with those younger than us neither can we understand wth the older ppl talked abt. so ya. things are really reversing as we grow. this aint only for the questioning part but it works the same way as information. we used to marvel at the creation that walked the earth but now it seems as though that dont matter no more. why? is it not important to know why we were created. for one i would not tolerate that i was an accident and out of somebodies nose hair came such a being like me...thats all the bull the world offers and yup its stupid...lol...

the next thing i would go into is......music?
i dunno music is really something that seems to always match a certain mood we have. listn to jazz brings us to the relack one corner kinda mentallity but if we were to go on to metal we would do it based on angst and everythin but happiness yougeddawaddaimean....so music plays by mood. like as i type this lethargic post i am listn to norah jones throw me jazz ballads and make me sleepy and yes i am tempted to hear angus young crank up his guit or billie joe armstrong scream his ounk lungs out and maybe even get that fone call i am so waiting for... it makes me feel comforted to hear the fone ring but many times the people on the other end aint what i am seeking to reduce my troubles.... where is that special person....well take things easy and every stride with pride and walk on by.... kudos to the ppl out dere who have cared for the angsty bugger behind the keyboard so yeah... chill and rock on man...

anyway i gotta bid you farewell.... going to relak one corner....

peace!

angsty bugger!

2006-07-13T05:40:00.000-07:00

well how time flies and so does this alter ego of mine. well it has turned passe with those around me. yes to diana i am an angsty guy and i ain't proud of it but there is just more than one side. this blog shows people a side of me that people do not usually see. i am not saying i am posing in all my ways but it is through my writing i can express things better.

angst has always been a problem for the many youths of today and me obviously. it is something that we all have to face because of the ever continuing problems we face. but the only difference is how we deal with this angst. i deal with it by writing while some deal it in a different way like personal infliction. the only reason why i choose to be more liberated here is because i want the world to know. its difficult to say things and thats the truth but escaping it is worse. in time i will learn to share more and i will do that in the know that it will help. God loves and i don't deny because i have seen it happening in my life a lot. i feel down many times because i view myself as a failure when i really had nothing to do with a situation at all. i lack a quality known as self preservation and that kills me really fast. i have grown over time to learn to understand people faster than usual and that has been both a blessing and a curse because i tend to judge and than appropriately mould my life around others. this really makes me a failure at what i preach and right now i am doing my best to make things work out not for people and not for me but for God because it is a servents duty to serve a master whole heartedly and not grudgingly. i thank Him for giving me the ability to really understand things fast but that is different from allowing me to let go.

it is always important to know why we fall rather than to get up because we might just be moving on without knowing anything only to find ourselves back at square one.

weirdo...

2006-07-11T02:27:00.000-07:00

hello again... beautiful day..i am writing my second entry in abt one hour or two...who cares...anyway i have evolved into a walking time bomb... a blender mixed with feelings, emotions, and me! so yeah i will have that frap to go with cream please..

so you see that i can get mad and i hope for the tolerance that all my friends can give me.... i will blow and than simmer as though i am crazy...but i am...

i feel the urge like i said to be evil yet i have learnt that goodness is a better option... i dunno anything anymore... i dun feel like talking... can i totally outkast myself like last time... can i bear the consequences of my choices... i dunno and there is no one to really tell me... so ya.... i am lost...

LOST! did u hear me? i got lost because of the crap i had to suffer... and am still suffering... why cant i be happy for myself... its just in me to still care... but why? cant i be cold and heartless... its difficult to understand people... they seem to love masking themselves up and when they face someone who turns insane like me they go scared and avoid... well... i bring reality and that can suck so ya... ha...

its difficult and never easy... dunno why i am still typing because i really exhausted all that i had to say.. i preached my lesson but it hasnt come to mind... so yeah... before i preach something i cant live i would stop here and allow a breather... this isn't the last of me... i will....

wonderboy

2006-07-11T01:20:00.000-07:00

High above the mucky-muck, castle made of clouds, There sits Wonderboy, sitting oh so proudly. Not much to say when you're high above the mucky-muck. Yeah, yeah. Wonderboy, what is the secret of your power? Wonderboy, won't you take me far away from the mucky-muck man?

can i be wonderboy? life sometimes is really filled with mucky muck man and things that its just difficult. my post have really lamented life to the point of life's non-existence.

i wanna feel like wonderboy is that too much to ask? childish but sometimes we must. escaping from the mucky muck to make sure life will allow us to stand tall and proud. i am pressing on to do that so that i may not be affected. i have turned to become a little more freaky than before and it seems that it eats me up. i wrote two letters today which showed botht the demon and angel like character that was contained inside of me. i wanted badly to take revenge yet that vengeance was not mine to handle but Gods'.

i just need the silence to drown my heart out to really say that i will not be affected. life is still going to fast. i have dug certain graves and have prepared myself to lie in it in hope for the best of the others that my death might make grasses greener. i will decompose slowly to form nothing and eventually all that is left will be mere memories that will lose its meaning. we will forget how the strawberyy ice cream tasted so sweet in our mouths and vaguely remember the insignificant. life doesnt always go the way we want so live with it!

i will be wonder boy....

story time...

2006-07-10T03:41:00.000-07:00

rain drops fell along the sidewalk of cherry street by which a young lad sat watching cars go by and enjoying the ice cream he paid for with the dime that rolled down that street. as the drops fell, the lad looked up to the heavens and tears flowed down his face. mummy was gone that day.

a few blocks away at the local cemetary, a man clad in black watched as the ordained minister pronounced his last rites before the casket was sealed. sadness encompassed the whole town.

nothing really brings a smile to our faces when deaths of friends or family members come our way. by this death i do not mean mere physical ones but those that involve us totally regretting to not be able to say our last sorries because our pride meant more. can't we just be frank and say that all that happen really was because we lacked faith within ourself. why must everythin be rationalized!

the lad looked up and instead of blaming God for his mother's death, he proclaimed, "Thank you God for showing your sympathy by pouring this showers down on me to really remember that you will always be there for me as you had to my mother who rest by your side."

Live your life in hope that we can sail through nicely, well all i can say is that you are a slob if you do think that way. Life isn't about you. Life is about showing those around us what
God has done so that they might eventually be convicted and love the Lord in the same way we do.

~soli deo gloria

normal..

2006-07-06T23:07:00.000-07:00

well...its hours before the my final predictament....worried...D"UH!!! but thanks to my mates at school and everyone else for showing support...i will get well!!! i promise...and finally attain my rock and roll dreams...lol....rte..ok.....enjoy this post in green....

live, love are really what many of us hold on too and sometimes we might lose the faith we put in this. its really difficult to move on in such a bleak future whereby nothin really seems to be gettin rte..well......thats faith for you...

faith is many times just believing in the unseeable and even untouchable...faith can be really be put to the test in many ways like how we would try and leap off a 20 storey building in hopes to live and be a hero...well....STUPID!!!

anyway what i really wanna bring across is that sometimes we need to make leaps of faith in life...as a Christian the biggest leaps i have made really involve me and my faith in God.... my walk with him can realli be described as walking through a foggy forest...i can hear him but sometimes i dun there to walk in the same direction....God and even our parents want us to trust their judgements but we just are afriad.... as much as we know they are there for us though we cant see them, we jus are to afraid to follow their voices instead we listn to ourselve and end up lost.... is this wat faith is all abt...trustin onli in yourself?

it has really been a difficult time for me rte now and all i can really do is trust and i am trying my best....I am weak but Thou O Lord art Strong....

Time of your life!

2006-06-17T07:39:00.000-07:00

time and time again i fell. time and time again i let people down. i let my family and God down so much that most of them have given up all hope on me. i can't really express my sorry-ful being now because nothing i can say will really change anything in my life. it has been more difficult for those around to really tolerate me but all i ask is for my family to pray for me. For God to forgive me and keep me to His side that i may not falter in my life. I am sorry to the faith i have kept for i have many a times attempted to run from Him and hide in the dark hoping that no one can see me. But He can. i ask myself how much have i shown to be the mature person that people see me to be but i guess i really can't. life has been a lie to a lot of people and i guess i really need to start being myself. introverted as i may presume i am, i never really know. no one can help me but my Faith in God and myself. why do i constantly have this short comings. no one really can answer this. i am writing all of this to represent what i feel in a form of words so i plead for no criticism. it is really a difficult peril that i am stuck in. obivious to my mistakes many a times. living a lie that everyone around me likes. maybe i should just take a step back and view the problems i have. my addiction for pornography, drinks, nicotine have all been part and parcel of this depraved mind i have. Has God really handed me over to that area? I have pledged myself time and time again to live the christian walk but end up not being who i ought to be. maybe i aint worth it anymore. i really want to change but with all this said i dun want to be treated differently at all by the people around me. its really somthing difficult to publish my short comings but i believe it is better to come clean and stop all this for the better. It aint really a laughin matter anymore for all of us especially myself. i have shown my skeletons.. my music has also sometimes been a hatred. many times it is really all jus superficial words that dont mean a thing but still add up to a tune. but this song i have written the whole of today brings out the fact that there is a need for us to look and treat life differently now. problems will be prevalent but we must face it head on. smiling makes the best of our days and if i am lying so help me God.

'i lay all this unto you, oh God that i might be a better servent and not remain as a sinner so depraved that death itself seems demeaning of all i have done. I call out to you to irradicate this sins and make my life a whole new one pleasing and holy unto your name in Jesus name i pray, Amen'

I aint ashamed of the faith and i would continue living my life in a different manner but here is the song i wrote for your viewing pleasure it is titled LIFE!

Life is all about them ups and downs
Its road never ever straight
But we still must face it with a smile
It is making me insane

Life aint that pretty like they say in Hollywood!
Nothing much we can do to make it change
But if there is one thing I know we all can do
Put that across your face
And say hey……

Chorus
Stop and smell the roses
You are only 16
Life is only a nightmare when you make it seem
That there is no where else to hide
And nothing seems alright
So lets make the best out of life!

What would you do when a gun is pointed at your head?
Would you turn around and denounce your faith
If there is one thing that you wanted to change
Will it really make you smile once again!

Chorus
Stop and smell the roses
You are only 16
Life is only a nightmare when you make it seem
That there is no where else to hide
And nothing seems alright
So lets make the best out of life!

blog

2006-06-13T02:40:00.000-07:00

hello one and all...jus so you would notice i increased the font for better viewing pleasure. this has been highlighted by many ppl who read this blog who say they can't see a shit. interesting how my prescence is still wanted even after that.

ok today all my colours would be rather gay. but not a suprise to many so yeah.

for a long time i have not blogged cause my life has been a real rollercoaster of tragedies, relieves, fun, and a whole lot more of mixed emotions. i have been tryin my best to get over certain things but its jus so hard to let go of things you truly spent your heart, mind and soul on and when they walk out it really sucks. i am still stuck in animation so much so i don't even know what is happenin to me. well even when things don't go our way at times it is always wise to try starting afresh. i wrote a song for a close person and the lyrics will be flashed at the bottom. yes it is emo so piss off if u cant stand it. i decided to put all i wanted to say to you within the song and maybe one day it will all be better again.

this entry is not going to be too lame because i am quite tired. haven been sleeping with the world cup and things running through my head at top sleep. life is going to fast and maybe i should do as Alicia says. "stop and smell the roses. you are onli 16 la chicken backside!" and yes i will try my hardest but maybe not the backside part. yeah. its really a wonder that God put friends on the earth to support us and everythin and i am truly appreciative of y'all and in my way i will take time to say thanks.

have fun peeps! this is the song i wrote and you can alwaes call me if u wanna hear it but i still have yet to present it to you...

title: I'm sorry (please forgive me)

What did you say,
Could you explain it
Or Can’t you just show me the way

I know I’m wrong
So please forgive me
Instead of just walking away

Drunk in my sorrows,
And lost in the way

Why must it hurt
Like a spear through my heart
Can’t you just give me a chance

If words and letters don’t mean a thing
Consider this song as my plea
I’m Sorry

I chose to escape
Away from the truth
Subliminal to all my mistakes

Down and depressed
I took you for granted
The darkness became my best friend

Drunk in my sorrow
And lost in the way

Why must it hurt
Like a spear through my heart
Can’t you just give me a chance

If words and letters don’t mean a thing
Consider this song as my plea
I’m Sorry

I am sincere about changing with time
I know you will give me that chance
Old habits die hard
But nothings impossible to change

Why must it hurt
Like a spear through my heart
Can’t you just give me a chance

If words and letters don’t mean a thing
Consider this song as my plea
I’m Sorry

Time?

2006-05-31T00:28:00.000-07:00

time? what is time? time is the damn thing you read of the ugly thing on your hand known as a watch if it aint a green day one!!(ref to earlier post..)

welcome back to another lame edition of..erm.. lets call this.. the-thing you-read-when-you-are-bored (TTYRWYAB) blog lol...ok in this issue we will discover how the phrase 'life is full of shit' actually came to mean that life sucked..

it all began one eventful summer day in the complicated yet unknown place known as HUman BOdy. on this very day, everyone living in this town were competing to see who will get to rule the place and so the EYE said, " I should rule this place because without me you cannot seeeee!!!"

"without me and my brother you cannot feel..."said the hands and legs.

"without me you cannot hear..." said the ear.

so the "without me..." war went on and unfortunately eminem wasn't there..lol..so finally someone unexpected showed up and debated for the ruling.. He was non other than ANUS!!!

"without me you shall feel pain!!" exclaimed anus but no one listened so Anus decided to constrict himself and this is known more commonly as constpation. the others didn't believe and so they laughed,"haha. what can a little shit hole like you do?!. haha!"

for the next 7 seven days, the parts in HUman BOdy started to wear down. they could not function with Anus constricting himself and decided to call him their ruler.

what is the moral then my friends?

Life is sooo full of shit that sometimes we can jus wear away. storing soooo much shit in us doesnt help it only makes the little shits holes around us happier so all we jus need to do is...take some laxative, visit the toilet and you would have a jolly good time....cheers mate!!!

2006-05-01T06:00:00.000-07:00

"Life isn't like a box of chocolates.... It's more like a jar of jalapenos. What you do today might burn your ass tomorrow."

yup..thats my liturgy of life...well today i will attempt to write a lon g entry but bear with me because i am really tired and lazy...what a combi eh... note: sorry if the entry is gonna get boring.

study has been top priority for the past few weeks and its really getting to me...like a north pole to the south..ok...well..i've been really tired and all the lame shit the last few days were jus excuses to get myself entertained..many times for us it has jus gone on to be a monotonous journey like a broken tape recorder and it sucks!

rte now all my energy has been spent on such an area that i am turning more lame...literally and psychologically...and now it doesn't help with all the stupid hype abt the GE now...big deal man...literally...give us more money!!!

ok...i am gonna attempt to crap... for the next few lines i hope...

well...

talk is cheap man because it cost me like 5 cents per message but we shouldnt go around jus tokin because it may jus result in a hell lot of payment when we actually look back when we cursed at the Gov or somethin...why do ppl these days get sooo affected by words..yes i have been guilty of that but not to the point that we can't forgive and forget...sometimes i forgive but i would nv forget cause ppl jus dun deserve it..the whole act abt the wordplay is a cool issue that many ppl jus dun get...the easiest words may be sharper den any two edged sword but the man who doesn get that is jus tracing paper...

yes today its all abt the dry humour so feel free to not luff because like i said...its all abt the wordplay!!!

2006-04-30T02:05:00.000-07:00

Name 20 people you can think of right now at the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you have written the names of all the 20 people. Okay tag at least five people. Ready? Start!
1. Pei Ying
2. gwen
3. Prunella
4. Edwina
5. Sabrina
6. Saiful
7. Zaki
8. Pei Jun (peiying’s sister)
9. David
10. Hafiz
11. Ian
12. Irwin
13. Eugene tan
14. Chong Zheng (peiying’s brother)
15. Kristle
16. Daniel Lee
17. Gorden
18. Cephas
19. Alicia
20. Victoria

Okay, now the questions...
1. How did you meet 14?
I haven’t…

2. What would you do if you had never met 1?
I’ll jus die…

3. What would you do if 20 & 9 dated?
God knows…

4. Did you ever like 19?
No!!

5. Would 6 & 17 make a good couple?
Unless its brokeback…

6. Describe 3.
Very cool and supportive of me…jus Da best

7. Do you think 8's attractive?
yup…hot! Lol sister better!!

8. Tell me something about 7.
He is bloody philosophical but cool… loves June!

9. Do you know any of 12's family?
I am part of it d’uh

10. What's 15's favourite?
Me! Lol…nah…I aint sure.. her hollaback crew

11. What would you do if 18 just confessed that he/she likes you?
Laugh my ass off!

12. What language does 15 speaks?
Onli English!

13. who is going out with 9?
I dunno but I pray it’s a girl!

14. How old is 16 now?
21

15. When is the last time you talked to 13?
last friday

16. What is 2's favourite singer/band?
Good Charlotte

17. Would you ever date 4?
My gawd! I would jus get smacked but maybe I’ll date her

18. Would you ever date 6?
Anytime Babaay!! woah

19. Is 12 single?
I dunno he might be attached

20. What is 18's last name?
Ong

21. Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 5?
No I guess but friendship…sorry sab!! lol

22. What school does 7 goes to?
Bowen la!!

23. Where does 3 live?
Sengkang

24. What's your favourite thing about 4?
She simply adores my jokes

25. Have you seen 1 naked?
No! (maybe)lol

Rise and awaken!!!

2006-04-29T23:45:00.000-07:00

hey peeps...third consecutive day of updating and you are still ingrates...lol
anyway, today is very special becos, it is....NOT YESTERDAY OR TML!!! woah.....

...ok...

i wonder whether i would win the prize for 'worst blogger of the year' or 'most voted to get kicked out of the bloggin world' hahha who cares you ingrates still read this shit...

well for the record i didnt mean to contrdict myself yesterday... i do freakin miss her!! aww...but...ha she misses me to so its even...hahah

i recently developed a problem..a real serious problem...(not an std u sick shit!) but worse...hahah....i bleed...from my.....NOSE!!! lol...and its not cause i look at girls often or watch porn...d'uh...but its cause....i think abt her...can u belief that...

girls...next time u wanna see if your guy is thinkin abt you, watch the blood..lol..or maybe he might be thinkin bout your mother instead..lol...ha perv...

i also find this blog gettin rather rhetorical with the issues and questions as such i have determined that from today onwrds i will attept to get even worse...hahah....aint that a sweat breaker...

or big issue for today...GE!! General Elections...dun wanna say too much...later kena public apology than all of y'all will know who the man behind this stupid blog is...but its been interestin seeing rallies and stuff goin on...ppl are gettin so desperate to win that they send trucks to travel around the whole singapore....lol..and you call me lame..lol...anyway its been a big thing ever since merdaka but you noe wat...i cant be bothered because of the structural system of the diplomacy which tends to be a waste of time because we nv will noe what the whole damn thing is abt...so give it a rest...want our vote....GIVE US MORE MONEY!!!! lol...hahaha

life is full of joy and shit but...w/o humour we will die...so ingrates jus continue readin i hope that you will gain enlightenment one day to understand that everytime you read this blog you jus wasted a few minutes of your unproductive life to turn stupider...lol...ahahha

PEACE OUT!!!

Its all you!

2006-04-29T02:03:00.000-07:00

hey faithful ingrates of this blog...woah!!
>its that time of the month again...I DUN HAVE PERIODS!!...but ya..lol....

ok wat did i mean by tt is: in a given month i would be so boody boreded tt i would blog..lol...ha...

well all my entries has been abt life and shit tt happens in it but today it would be different....it would be abt the shit that happens in life...yep you heard me....ingrate...lol..hahahaha!!

this is abt the closest you can get to really meetin me but ya..lol.hahaha

as you may already noe i can tend to get quite dry with humour so much so that i have to drink water and it doesn really help with all the drinking....yep...ttz me

ok so lately the weather has been gettin on my nerves man its like raining than sunny again...cant it jusbe more organized or sumthin...send everyone a copy of its bloody schedule...tt would safe the money being paid for the fat dude on tv tellin us all the fake weather...SOB....

i am also greatly troubled cause i am longing for....ha for you to read this crap and den get troubled too....my sentiments to you sucka!!! muahahahah......

i dun even noe why ppl read this shit..lol...anyway i miss someone real bad man...its like hurtin..you noe pain....yeah the thing you feel when someone shoves somethin up yr ass...yup pain....i kinda miss her man...cant belief i am writing this...i am turnin emo! no!!!lol

not worth it man....i am goin strong with the dark side...hahah

i really feel like killin someone but i jus dunno who...maybe it shld be you....lock yr windows cause i noe what you did last summer...lol...hahaha sorry.....hahaha...ok...maybe i shld jus stop....

see you soon my ingrates....soon you will upgrade to be my minions hahah...this is brainwashin aint it...lol..ahahaha.....

ok good bye!!!!!!!!

aint it sad?

2006-04-27T06:22:00.000-07:00

hey...my name is isaac but that aint really important... today i have a sad announcement to make...and indeed its sad... so sad...so much that it has sad written all over it...yup...if you haven by now gotten the idea....thats sad...cause how can you not get that all i am saying is sad....

OK!!!!!!!!

enough of that crap...lol....hahaha...pissed you off real well (eddy is probably gonna smack me anyhow...)

today its all abt the wordplay my friends.. life has always been bout the words and all the stupid things we say... we hurt others and get hurt only to utter these few words, "i'm sorry"

as the song goes "sorry seems to be the hardest word"

it should be tt way man... we can't just expect forgiveness......now that the exams are near, i hope i would not be stuck in the position of saying i am sorry.... life for me has hit rough patches and i bet for everyone else out there to.... our relationships with friends and family....God....

Give me novocaine man........let me sleep and escape things through cos my friends, reality is so real it aint really tv no more...if you get wat i mean... survival of the fittest, nah! survival and ttz it....everything is abt survival man....keepin the scraps you have and smirking at the poorer folks....ha...evil i noe...so yeah...lifes not fair.... i aint tokin bout the notes in the wallet but really life man...we cant just say life will pass day by day....one day life aint gonna be there no more...than....all the best to wherever you're goin....think abt your life....have you accomplished what you wanted before you die the horrible death predestined on you....May God have mercy on your soul!

Pride of our School....

2006-03-24T07:05:00.000-08:00

(disclaimer: this post is mainly for the debate family...will post up soon..lol...)

a very good evening my fellow debators. i am wrote this right after i came home. this is more or less a letter of gratification for each and every one of you. But please allow me to first give an overall thank you speech.

I am firstly really grateful to our teachers for allowing us to participate in the julia gabriels. I have certainly learnt a lot from this experience. I have taken back so much knowledge about debate that i probably would have never heard off if i had turned the offer down. I am also deeply grateful to the team members and coaches who have come along side us and guided and nurtured us all the way. this is specially for the debators who they themselves have proven to be very powerful speakers and definetly we have made a name for ourselves here in the debating world.

i will now move on to individual thanks because each and every one of you is different. let me start with the youngest.

Amanda. You have proven yourself time and time again through this whole course of the debate. you eloquence has certainly swept a few of us off our feets from time to time. I appreciate your willingness that you have given in participating. I will be frank and not acknowledge that your becoming is due to me however it was due to yourself. i am glad to see that you have matured a lot through this course when yr brains are really exercised. I believe that with the many future debates, you will be nurtured and have what it takes to be a best speaker through and through. I am definetly proud to have worked with you and I would love to see more of your debates soon.

Eugin Wee. You have always brought a bright cheery side to the team. I want to congragulate you on your win of 3 best speaker positions in the debates you have come out of. I have to admit to achieve such a feat is really amazing especially since none of your seniors won any. You are a very good substantive and reply speaker and continue doing what you are good at. Let this experience help you grow in confidence and ability to convey your points clearer and improve yr oratorical skills. I have seen you debate since SRJC and have seen how far you have progressed from there. From being a nervous word swallower to a confident public speaker has shown that you do have what it takes to be a good debator.

Jonathan. You have been a fellow third speaker of mine and at many time we are loggerheads however you have never seem to amaze me everytime you take the floor. I understand that many a time nerves get the better of us but i am really proud that you have improved. you and eugin have been the real debate juniors of mine ever since SRJC but i have seen you really grow. I have appreciated the times that you have really shown an interest in debates. You have taught me patience because i learn that people are different and we can't just expect people to be what we want them to be. I agree many time i have higher hopes for you because i know one day you can and will be the best you are. Disregard peoples comments cause sticks and stones can break our bones but words would never do so. Let not your dignity be lowered lest your weaknesses be exposed.

SuXin. I had a great time working with this fellow friend and debator of mine. We have been dreaming of this moment forever and finally it has come. Indeed we have learnt each others strength and weaknesses but nonetheless we make a good team. We do have disagreements at times but the process still runs smoothly. You have been a source of inspiration in your field od substantive and i have aspired to be as good as you however i soon acknowledge that we are actualy fighting a different battle. Our battle field is not on the same level. I have seen how you have promoted in your levels ever since sec 1 and am really happy for you. We have one more battle and thats the O's so ya work for it and don't back down.

Alvin. I am really happy to have met you and finally get a bloody coach la. You have really shown me and impressed me with your thinking prowess and lame ability and i guess i am really proud to say that a friend like you will last. You have inspired me to take debating to another level and really look at things in a different light. I will be looking forward to meet you again after army.

Aquila. Thanks for the week of help when we were missing the element of a coach. I thank you for your help given and acknowledge your presense with us. Thank you.

to wrap up...

Life is never a bed of roses. I hope that we have learnt a lot through this experience and that we will never give up this love for deabting. We came back with all the bondings and finally end up as a family. I thank everyone again who has supported us. rember this. What does not kill you, only strengthens you..... Bowen Debate is here to stay...!!

Busy with life!

2006-02-23T06:53:00.000-08:00

Right... i aapologize to the many who have been checking up on my blog and not getting to read any post...rte now feeling down and stressed...O's this years...Dad Screaming at me as i type this down...damn sian....can't be bothered anymore....i also feel the hurt for a friend...i understand what you are going through and i bet everyone around you will be with you everystep...do not fear yr subjects but let them fear you...gotta go...bye

first installment of a trilogy...

2006-02-05T02:56:00.000-08:00

ok i am attemping to awe the readers of this lame blog with a photo journal of a few events so u wont bug me to keep updating...this shld keep u busy for a while.....
the first one is abt CNY 2006! yup....money money money.....
ok rte anyway this chinese new year has been a productive one...i have reaped quite a lot that will go into the use of chrsitmas gifts and valentines and birthdays....lol.....ok we had the usual gathering a week late cause my brother was admitted into the hospital but he is ok now......i took a few pictures of food in particular....c'mon u look at me u sure noe food is my forte la...lol......ok so here are the pictures....

ok...this is the traditional lo hei...its a lot cos my family quite big la...lol..

this is my portion....of course it was onli the beginning to greater things

this is good stuff man....its taupok with lots of feeling topped with sweet sauce i must have had ten over....lol...no la...maybe 50...oops..

this is damn good cheese cake made by my cousin...the layer of cheese is damn nice la.....must try...lol

ok...this is the last picture...there was much more food but i dun want all yr key boards to short circuit when u salivate.....this picture got meaning noe....it shows u after eating, u still wont get enlightened and the point of you being what u eat has already been established as rubbish!...cause i look nothin like a lo hei...ok...tt was lame...but tt is wat this blog is all abt...enjoy the next two installments....see u guys soon....

second installment...

2006-02-05T02:44:00.000-08:00

the second installment today is abt the show i not stupid too...its a damn good show....funny and touching....i enjoyed the brilliance of jack neo who was able to put two of such emotions together making u cry and laugh at the smae time....its a good show parents to come and learn to understand their children....we cna see from the examples in the show how ignorance can cause a child to go astray.....sad thing but true....many kids out dere lack that love that all of us need....we are also human beings and not jus accidents that occured due to carelessness on the part of the parents.....indeed our lives need care and love....i encourage those who read this to reflect upon it as valentines day approaches....maybe u can help encourage yr frenz and keep the fire within them burning......anyway.....this is a good show to watch and i urge everyone who hasnt watched it to go spend the money to watch....don be lame!...lol....i would end this with a quote that a young boy said to his fater regarding why he stole...."i took $500 to buy one hour of your time to come see my performance..." must we go to that extent for u than to wake up and understand us.....

third installment......

2006-02-05T02:05:00.000-08:00

ok...so this is the third entry of my photo-blog....i hope the pictures much earlier were clear.....this entry is the neighbourhood ginna！ok rte now i have been trying to keep fit by running and what a better way to do it with a bunch of friends who like me also dun ha much to do.....so we decided to go runnin....aint that cool...anyway here are some of the neighbourhood ginnas!

this is me and sab,

this is our two advert promoters, cai ling and afifah

this is the bei-hoon-kia of poh huat....mr Britney!

ms soh wei lun and the kelong girl who got us messed up...LIMIN!!!

this is abt all the neighbourhood ginnas now....but the base of this club is growin.....so those in school who wanna join us jus tell us and we will arrange somethin with you....hope u enjoyed the trilogy...

2006-01-27T05:45:00.000-08:00

ok....lately....its been abt a week since i blogged...yup..ttz my watch(thanx ed) anyway i have been busy bloggin on another blog...not mine but my frenz...so yeah.....

i have been chillin for quite awhile this week...slackin cause the new year is comin...that jus brings abt the sound of money (ka-ching!) anyway...i hope that this year the stcks will increase man...valentines is also on the way....i a crackin my brains out to get her a gift....hope she doesnt read this...so to play on the safe side i aint gonna write down my options....lol....recently stumbled upon the john mayer trio album! yep u heard me....lol....many of my frenz dun think he is any good but wth...lol...if u can play like him...woah! i love the rendition on I Got A Woman by stevie wonder....its actually the song kanye west used for the backing track of goldigger!!!thats another good song but the original still rocks my socks off.....yeah....i rate this CD 4/5 stars...lol....yup you heard....get it now!!.....

well thats all for today...rather short post but yeah read it! thank you and good night

Boring post for today

2006-01-18T06:53:00.000-08:00

so hi again....really rare that u get me blogging on subsequent days unless i would eventually make money out of it...so ya....its been long since i ever toked abt anythin sensible...actualy almost nv...but wth why break tradition...lol....i am not gonna blog bout days cause i think its stupid to live each day like its gonna end......jus totally dumb...... anyway this mindless crap was brought to you by moi....lol.....so ya.....peace!!

Back to rattle....

2006-01-17T04:09:00.000-08:00

hey, back to rattle my mouth off......last entry was 7 dec....cool eh....lol...ok so this is the first for the year lets try makin it sensible....
ok first up, the podcast thing....lol....i have been unsuccessful in doing a podcast (i bet sabrina is jumpin for joy, but wth!) so sad eh?....lol....i cant find the equipment....sad case....anyway will keep trying
So lets see all i have been doing lately is really going to school and back...attempting to study but failing....slacka!! anyway school has been the same.....now sec 4 already!!!! O's are here this year.....just another stupid examination to pollute our young fragile minds with studyin....so ya must study.....why does the world have to rely so much on pieces of paper that i can photostact with the aunty at the bookshop for a mere 5c.....crazy rush for all this.......anyway another thing lately is my poor bass......my darling bass has not been polished and cleaned since my last performance.....trying to get performance pictures up but cant find any (RANDY!!)....thanx li lin for the encouragin tags its really cool u like the song.....its good! tryin to find new podcast to put up online......Mark Hoppus seems to be really busy........the whole itunes database is failing me.....stupid......anyway regardless apple is still the best.....really contridicting for me rte now cause i am using a windows xp server.....no money than give more to bill gates la.....nvm....lol..... school still gives me the creeps....not used to it at all.....gettin someone like me out of bed in the early mornings can be a hassle.....i have to like place toothpicks between my eyes to get them open....lol......i bet many ppl out dere would jus be waiting for me to extend the invitation for them to slap me awake....eddy i bet u are topping that list....but anyway....not so soon....i can still make it.....recently i found another likin in getting boreded...really....thats like the best thing that can happen to me....to get boreded.....realieves the stress out of me.....its not like i can do anything productive with the lame brain of mine....lol.....yeah and i have become less lame....now can walk more....oops....lol.....ha smack me!!! lol.....anyway before i continue with more senseless rattlin, lets save this for another time.....causes the suspense for those who wanna murder me for not updatin....anyway ciao my readers.....if i have any

My new stuff!!! oooo this is sweet!!

2005-12-06T08:13:00.000-08:00

rite!! hi my name is.....
this is a phrase i have been hearing ever since the inventions of podcast...i love podcast....lol...anyway yeah...recently i stumbled upon a damn funny one....as you may know i have been listn to mark's podcast which gives me good music but i stumbled upon mr brown's podcast.....this is one sweeet podcast man...lol...the one that is realli good is featured on the 10 Oct 05 called ..... ZHNG MY KAR!!! woah...
it is a parody to the mtv show pimp my ride....lol...guys who wanna go get the podcast can go to mr brown's webbie at www.mrbrown.com ok....nuff said....
moving on to todays title....i got myself a new guit....a bass guit that is....a nice EPIPHONE EBO...it has a single humbuckler pick-up...the body is in the shape of a gibson sg no idea check out school of rock....the movie...yeah the guit jack black held.....i will post some pics up at the end of this entry so yeah.....anyway ha....it is sweet man...it cost me $399..the guit has two knobs tone and vol...not musch to play arnd...the pick-up is a passive one but when played sounds as good as a active one so yeah....good...lol....anyway the guit has a nice blues/jazz tone to it...warm....and totally sweet...lol....so yeah if u are getting a bass guit below 500 get that...lol...good sound it is wat i can ask for as of now...so yeah....anyway thats abt all i bought...yeah i wrote a song...lol..a nice one i guess..after all i wrote is...(i know i am thickskin) lol...i am soooo sure ed wants to smack me now....anyway...ha..ttz abt alli have to say.....so yeah...gd night!

MR INDIA IS SO BACK!!!!!

2005-12-01T05:02:00.000-08:00

hey...
i know queer title man...but allmy friends used 'back from india' or something to that extend so yeah i tot i would try to be unique....
anyway let me try recall and tell you the diff stuff we did everyday....
we checked in at abt 1am so shit me if i weren't tired anyway so much for the first day....WRONG!!!!! i bunked with Brit and Chad(junjie). After we entered our room a frantic ms edwina came over to let us know that by some ruling before we enter we should knock twice.......that freaking scared the shit out of chad......so yeah......he tolong-ed the whole freaking room and that kind of got us really happy.......lol....we had good sleep that night......
2nd day: we visited a school in the morning and realised these indian students sebeh siao on!! (take ref. from the coxford dictionary to get the meanings). unlike us they realli respond in class la......the class room like zoo man....anyway...lol.....we than visited the IIT (Indian Institue of Technology) it is some big U there so ya.....they made their own apparatus and stuff and recycled their materials that super made us interested......than we slept but b4 that the guys in my room had a dare session.....we decided to sleep topless w/o our blankets with the aircon blasting at 15 degrees on the top speed.....so freakin freezed our balls off....but after brit jus died......lol......he then achieved a new nick frm us....BHK (bei hoon kia)....loosely translated means marijuana boy....directly translated: white powder boy.......our translation : just plain boy that is white as powder......
3rd day: we went to more schools....we realised that schools there had damn cheem names....the one we visited was known as ALPHA MENTRICLE.....wth was mentricle?! who cared? anyway we than adjourned to the hey math office for lunch and play games.....than they planned a trip to a cultural place for some math cultural experience where ppl danced to math....so yeah.....following that we went shopping for like an hour only.... den went back for debrief before we partied......
4th day: we went to visit a seashore temple that has been preserved...got beautiful shots of it....tryin my best to place up an online picture blog..... so we jus visited laces and had wonderful lunch.....after we went for shopping....at night....we went to watch harry potter at a local cinema....the ppl there made hell lot of noise cause it was culture so we did the same...lol......came back at one plus and partied again but this time kena scolded....after...we slept for like a few hrs than got up again to visit more schools....
5th day we went to one more school to see them and ask the same qns as we did always..... than erm... i forgot...lol...so yeah....oh we went shoppin again i think and partied more cos it was our last night....
6th day we went sight seeing and shopping at a flea market and the rest was history....we came back...so ya that was wat we did....lol.....

Blogging beside edwina get dysfunctional....

2005-11-04T12:40:00.000-08:00

So yeah i noe i aint like blogging lately so like forgive me....while nothin much changed jus tt now i am bloggin in skool beside edwina who is blogging to....yeah she and her party wishes which jus reach to the point that she hates kids and yeah....
edwina says hi to all u guys and asked youto visit her blog www.eddygalgal.blogdrive.com ok and yeah sabrina jus burped beside edwina face.....
sabrina is like a girl who likes to buy cd's and burp a hell lot which jus pollutes the air and she a wicked luffter so yeah......so if you guyswanna noe her go to www.zits-suck.blogdrive.com ...ok....
lets see the fourth podcast is out now and as usual mark is jus gettin queerer man....lol...but check it out frm either www.himynameismark.com or fromitunes for all you apple users....ok...
great news blink 182 greatest hits is out and there are two versions a cd onli and cd+dvd version the songs like rock and i would give it 10/10 stars.....another piece of great news is the hard rock live albumof sp tt i have been promotin on my blog the last few months....yeah that is like 100/10 stars cause there is a dvd of the concert....lol....so yeah go get them now......
ok so this is how it goes...ed says tt SAB LOVES PINK so for those of you gettin sab a prezzie onthe thirteen on nov get somethin PINK!!!!!lol yeah....
ok so wat else can i say...ed's like singing again lol...so hahhaha...yeah...lol...jus wait til she reads this and i would like so totally die...lol.....so ppl listen up please like remember to tag and like spam their blogs that i jus gave you and ya make fun of them.....lol...chill

la famalia

2005-09-27T21:21:00.000-07:00

hey... something recently struck me as a was tokin to a fren...not literally struck me or i wouldnt be here rte....ok..lame...i get it...anyway...it had to do with family...i haf always been a rebel w/o a cause in my family...nv doin wat i was told once i started to grow up...i felt tt i was nv given priority in the family...nv being able to make decisions...always havin to clean up after my brothers...i had felt pissed many times at everyone...i was jus a kid filled with angst and plz don ever associate me wif avril lavigne....yuck...anyway...like i said...i am always looked upon as an outkast..i was part of the family yet not part of it...yes very complicated but it is the truth...i realli do not noe how i can actually cope....my music influences are always being sarcatically disapproved of......sometimes i jus wanna crack.....i nv could understand why i was not given much attention...i nv said anything.....
soon enuff....my parents started askin stuff like if i had a gf...and it jus appeared weird....literally felt like interrogation....why after so many years???? why now???
doesnt even make a difference.....i still haven resolved within myself whther i can tell them anythin...ppl tell me i shld cos they are my parents..but....i dunno....it is all a psychological cloud dat is blockin my view....i do not noe wat to do.....i love them...i realli do...but i guess i realli dunno how to approach them...hope they might understand one day.....

new song..

2005-09-24T08:54:00.000-07:00

ok this is a short one....plz remember to but sp new album...the song tt jus played or is playin is from their live album....it is CRAZY.......so chill and look out fo rmore stuff tt i will post

it aint gonna be the same...

2005-09-22T20:42:00.000-07:00

i guess we can nv explain everything tt happens in life based on our human knowledge....like why is it possible tt we will wake up the next day?
no amt of words or conjurin of magical tricks can realli explain how this earth was created or why we survuve each day....
have u ever taken yr life for granted in tt u noe u wont die?
what if one day u walk out yr door and u cross the road and get bangged down?
have u tot of yr meanin in life?
i guess we shld nv take advantage of what has been given to us and i would like to sugest that a spiritual being named God did all this for a purpose..technically speakin when we invent anythin, there will always be a purpose to it....and the reason why God created us is to have a right relationship with him.....however, we chose a different way and walked in the direction we wanted....this is known to us as SIN

sin results in something our science txtbook says tt all human beings mus go thru...DEATH....and it doesnt end there.....the truth is after death, we will be judged on every good and bad thing we have done and those who did not belief in Christ will be eternalli seperated from Him...this is a scary thought to me....knowin that there are ppl out dere who do not noe God....

But God in His good ways proviided a way out....that is thru a man named Jesus Christ...
Jesus Christ was a way back to God...He basically brought us out of darkness and into light...imagine u are a diver and yr oxygen tank runs out....all of a sudden, someone dives to you and provideds u with his oxygen tank...take into account the tank can onli last one person a journey to surface....that man risk his life all out for you disregard of yr supidity in not refillin yr tank properly.....that is the kind of action tt Jesus Christ went thru...

Jesus died on the cross for u and me hopin that by His blood he could bring us back to God....Why could he do this? it was because he was the onli perfect person....he was guilty of none....He risked His life to save you in order tt u become children of God again...

However, this chance is onli for those who want to noe more abt him and want to accept that all He did was for you....Acknowledgin Him as your personal Lord and Saviour who will govern yr life....and the bible says that who ever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life......the choice is yours and u would have to make it...it is either yes or no.....

friends who noe me...if u have read this and felt that u wan to accept Jesus Christ to be yr personal Lord and Saviour, jus let me noe....all that i ahve said is true.....think abt it....have u found yr purpose....look around you and marvel at everythin u see.....will you choose Him todae?

life

2005-09-20T21:19:00.000-07:00

i guess life for many can mean different things...like fun, enjoyment, MONEY, lust, pleasure, and many more....
my life has hit lots of bumps recently thus causin my aims to faulter... being 15 aint easy man...one more year away from "sweet" sixteen? i can hardly wait.....
why must life suck everytime things are goin well....why cant fairytales be depicted thru the lives of us...no doubt some ppl get all the fun they want...but wat abt those self reliant ppl.....in particular me....yes i am rantin and rantin abt how MY life in particular aint the best thing on the earth....
everytime i look at psalms 22...i cant help but notice a guy of the same number of problems but of a different degree....."Eli Eli Lema Sabachtani"....
thanx to knowin God, i can haf full assurance tt it will go well one day.....He has alwasys provided an answer and tt is why i can trust in His providance even though it may appear to be NO...
i dunno why...but i jus wish somethings in my life jus change.....i still am living with regrets and i realli am sorry to the one i let down....i nv knew things would be this way.......if only you could forgive me....i am realli guilty....i am sorry.....my heart aches as i type this....tears are spearing tru the keyboard....plz i seek yr forgiveness.....i still sought after you as a confidant for nothin i can do will make it seem right anymore.......
plz jus one more chance.....if onli we could say...tIl dEaTh Do Us PaRt....

The Song

2005-09-11T02:17:00.000-07:00

SP live cover,
originally uploaded by loser4life.

Hey guys who visit my blog.....the short excerpt tt you hear of addicted, comes frm sp latest album tt is featurin on the 4/10.....be sure to check out stores for it....chill

another look

2005-09-08T06:11:00.000-07:00

5 string guitar,
originally uploaded by kemikore.

Hey i jus changed the layout again.. now it will post more sp stuff so u sp fans who haf my link jus come here and check out the latest stuff of sp....and don forget.. sp: live at hard rock...is out on the 4 oct 05 in the USA...not sure of the local scene in S'pore...anyway chill

We Are The Reason...

2005-09-06T21:38:00.000-07:00

Hey long time no post...lol...anyway been really busy tryin to study...i reitterate the word tryin....lol...anyway sorry for my spelling...
Lately i have been practicing for an upcoming gig called christmas airways....the band will be playin at country clubs, shopping malls and stuff...lol...anyway yeah it is realli cool but it has been gettin stressful....songs like Feliz (Fei-Liz) Navidad, we are the reason, calypso carol and many more......as usual in pARTS we all multi task so besides playin bass i haf been assigned to try the drums too... hopefully the guit too...yesh it is stressful but fun.....had a good time today practicisin and jammin...an added plus was when i got my new computer....which sooo rocks..lol...haiz....super tired...gonna chill now....bye!

Back Problems

2005-07-28T22:52:00.000-07:00

hey~~
I have changed the layout again hope u guys like it... recently many things have been happenin to me but it will be a bore reading tt....anyway from where i left off durin the hols, i went overseas to australia and than to OBS...DA GAMA rocks!!!....

with reference to the title of todae, i have to admit itz abt me....right now i am feelin a lot of pain as i type this...not emotional wreckages but serious physical pain.....i have been sufferin with a spine injury for over 8 months.. jus the day before, i went to the hospital to get an MRI scan on my back.....in two weeks it would be finalised if there need be for an op......i am realli scared about it cause jus the tot of ppl cuttin you up is scary.....but nonetheless if it is necessary than i i have to go thru it. I dunno why the pain has been increasin to tremendously....it was so bad tt the doc gave me 22 days of mc...yes 22......but if i am better i will go back to skool cos i will miss out on alot.....and yeah i didnt go to skool todae cause i could not stand up in the morning......yup ttz my pathetic life.....ok anyway i gtg rest not all this typin is drainin me out......ciao peeps

Pilgrmage

2005-06-08T23:29:00.000-07:00

i am in this world but not of it...

itz sumthin tt i had to grasp the last 3 days at bible trail. how can i be in this world and not be of it.......i guess for myself many a times i am strapped on firmly to the world...in the way i behave.....in the way i speak....in the way i feel.....

many things in this world jus seem sooo rite la.....like fakin yr frenz....basically itz jus lyin la.........many times it seems that lyin is an acceptable mtd of gettin our selves out of situations......again this is by worlds standard.....white lies and stuff well.....i like to say that lies are jus lies la no matter wat colour u paint them they will still be lies.....

u see thru such an example tt it is realli hard not to get caught up with the world and its ideologies....wat the world puts across to us isnt at all the same as how God wants us to react therefore if we react similarly how den as christians can we be different.....how can be say that we are set apart....

if we do so and still noe we are holdin on i guess we are shortchangin our selves......the bible says that if we love God, we cannot love the world.....and vice versa.....our tresures are stored up in heaven and awaitin onli if we are not of the world....

we all await the day that Christ will return and present us the crown of life but if we cannot give up the things of this earth than christ will say that he nv knew us at all......

this is abt all i wanna share will indeed update u on wat else i learn le....so chill

2005-06-03T22:06:00.000-07:00

I know a girl

She puts the colour inside of my world

But she's just like a maze

Where all off the walls all continually change

And i've done all i can

To stand on the steps with my heart in my hands

Now i'm startin to see

Maybe itz got nothin to do wif me

Here is another nice song by John Mayer a very talented guitarist...i was intrigued to hear he won song of the year even though he is like underrated and stuff.....anyway....i think i realli relate to the first stanza of the song...i was probably in a sense suckered in...i was to immersed in the wrong thing that caused confusion and den one day i jus realised i was in a sense being a fool on the corner of the street...btw ttz the title of the song i'm workin on lol.....so must have some publicity...lol...nah but anyway this kind if feelin realli sux la.....where we feel tricked or fooled into something tt is but mere fantasy.....i guess itz wat keeps us goin on la...lol....anyway i am bloggin til here.....til we meet again

2005-06-01T23:00:00.000-07:00

so you stole my heart,

and left me a ransom letter

demanding I treat you better,

should I ever want it back

and now I'm all alone

dreams are all forgotten,

memories all turned rotten,

it's not the same on the phone

so what's up girl?

things haven't changed a bit since we last met

I bet my bottom dollar you're the best,

girl that I ever had

I never wanna lose you

so what's up?

hey~~ this is soo not written by me but itz a lovely song.....guess many a times we feel this way on how the one we hold close jus drift away leavin our sides withouth a proper explanation.....life like that....we must have the down sides to understand the upseides of it of course sometimes it goes upside down la......anyway i hope dose with problems with whether a boy fren out dere or girl fren and u guys get into some problems, don't forget that there is a God who allows such things to happen for a reason.....sometimes itz for us to grow....u may ask why God must let us learn the hard way....well....He has a plan for us....everythin that u do or happens in yr life itz not jus a miracle....itz because He has a purpose for everyone out dere.....whther u are big or small...white or black...short or tall....it doesnt matter cause ultimately we are His creation and He loves us no matter wht.....so with that i hope u guys out dere facin this problems jus chill......peace

Crazy?

2005-05-31T23:45:00.000-07:00

this world is a messed up place.....with us especially......we are the messed up ppl who make this place messed up beyond our own control......now i understand why a flood had to wipe out the human race durin noah's time......

we as man have still yet to understand fully wat carin for others realli means.......we are still as stuck up as ever.....must we wait for another disaster before we change?

lately my life hasnt been the same....really confused abt myself...i noe i don normally tok abt myself in my postings but i jus cant seem to pour out this emotions.....

i haf done many things that do not glorify God. first it was my crappy results that i jus acheived....i really regret not doin better....havin to see my parents worry sooo much realli sux......cant i be a smart kid like everyone else....not for anythin else i am jus toooo darn lazy....i jus don get it why up to now i still aint bothered to change.....y must things turn out this way...

i have also done wrong to many ppl who cared abt me......i snubbed them, humiliated them, made them feel like ingrates when i am the one who realli fits into all this categories myself.....i haf been changin and not for the better either. y must i go to the extend of hurtin those who love me and whom i love......sometimes is jus lie in my bed and think til those tears flow down my cheeks on why i have become the monster i am.....itz like my life opened to the chapter of dr jekyl and mr hyde.......however i am missin that antidote.....

my life has been a spiritual wreck too....i haven been walkin closely with God....i alwaes pray to someday be like david....a man after God's heart but i nv keep to my hopes....i cant walk alone in this world....i need God...i jus dunno how to go abt it.....i jus don take the damn initiative......my heart pains everytime i noe i forget.....can anyone help me?

i guess this is indeed an entry tt i will nv forget.....will constantly look at it so i will remind myself to press on and take the first step to go abt acknowledgin him.......

hope u ppl have a good night and God Bless.....

Revenge is soooooo sweet.........muahahaha

2005-05-29T20:32:00.000-07:00

how many of us love the taste of sweet revenge?
well like every human being, when someone gets us, we jus wanna stab the guy in the back sooo hard that all his guts jus fly all over the screen.....

this is how the whole the last episode of starwars: the revenge of the sith. potrayed to all who were gluein thier eyes on the big screen....

itz really cool to finally get to watch the missin episode after 30 plus odd years....however sad to say the endin was crappy....i wont wanna spoil all those ppl fun who wanna watch by tellin u the whole endin but nevertheless, i still rate it 8/10.

now that skools out, i aint in any mood to celebrate at all....the whole concept of havin to test how much u noe jus plain sux la......haix...i dunno why i got those crappy results but i am seriously determined to study this hols except when i go back to australia to relax for a while.....dunno wat to do....

on the whole topic of revenge, a few ppl have been jealous of a few things tt i have achieved (plz be mindful that this aint revenge itz jus an expressed opinion). i have been tryin to get thru them but somehow they jus wanna be in tt dream world of theirs....anywae the point i am tryin to make is tt revenge aint sweet cos it jus makes u look realli dumb jus look at wat happened to the sith lords....they suffered after all rte?....by continuin to try aint take revenge will jus make u look very childish and immature? vengeful ppl out dere....u sure u wanna risk at lookin stupid?

"vengeance is mine" said the Lord.

be mindful tt if u take it upon yrself to do such despicable acts, u will be pronouncin judgement upon someone. and here is a reality check for u, you aint more superior than anyone so get it straight or else u will jus be the butt of the joke.....

anywae guys and gals out dere, chill out....hang loose....have fun.....peace!

i am soooo back

2005-05-20T21:54:00.000-07:00

hey people.......i am soooo back with a new look......nice huh.....jus tryin for the traditional black.....so enjoy.....i would try to blog more but for now....chill

i am bored i am boredddddd

2005-04-07T21:21:00.000-07:00

Yox.... i noe i am so disturbed by the world and stuff lol big deal........ anyway i have been realli tired...... itz so sad simple plan is over..... they rawk............i don wanna be told to grow up........ now jus updated GC on my ipod..........i dunno wat to write..... usually scoldin the world and makin a fuss but for once i am like super boreded.........lol anyway will end here

TeLL me WATZ wrong wiF society.......

2005-04-03T00:43:00.000-08:00

SIMPLE PLAN!!!!! last wednesday i was one of the fortunate Singaporeans to be a part of the simple plan phenonmenm.............being a huge fan of simple plan, i jus had to catch it........it was like a dream come true for me cause i nv expected them to come but nuff said lets get down to buisness......

can anyone tell me wat is wrong with society......i see so much crap happenin around me that i jus cant stand it.......ppl not carin about one another and jus wishin that one another would disappear from the face of this earth and stuff.......is it humanely rte?

where do kids get the idea tt killin is bad and stuff.......why do teens think tt almost everythin shld jus circulate around sex.......is it rte.......

media is the problem whether thru games or tv..........everyshow has a sleazy scene or an actress who is seductive in all her actions.....does sex realli sell that well? i guess being a teen and stuff yes i am no doubt exposed to all this crap and it comes frm everywhere............no doubt it arouses a young man's senses but it is jus morally wrong..........

many ppl think that adultery is jus sleepin around and stuff but wake up to reality......... adultery can even come in the form of lustin after someone.......aint tt a scary thought.......logically speakin it is possible to commit adultery by jus visualizin wat ever...............i hope peeps who bring my blog get snapped back to reality i jus tot i'd share this with ya guys........

PEACE OUT!!!!!!!!!!!

New Year for everyone....

2005-02-11T06:28:00.000-08:00

Yo peeps........so long no see rte lol......well i have been busy and mostly to sick to update i have barely recovered but i tot i shld jus update u guys on my situation so far
well......as the chinese new year jus started i have started on my annual money collection scheme.....lol.....but don get it wrong i aint out to con those innocent ppl's money but jus to keep close to my herritage in collecting money frm the married peeps.......it realli shows how married chinese couples are realli stressed........givin wif a smile but realli achin within.....well thanx anyway so yah the collection has been good but tiring and i got a huge big blister on my feet frm generatin my stupid juices and allowin them to take charge of my genius mind in connin me to play soccer bare footed in the basket ball court lol super dumb now tt i look and feel the pain well.......nvm tt......anyway monday is valentines day well......as usual i will be at home watchin tv lol...happy doin tt too anyway....so watz the fuss bout this valentines day beside it being Val's burfdae......i guess nothin much huh.....i like to think tt when you are attached or married valentines time day shld be everyday of your married life cos u shld love him/ her so wat is the big fuss of valentines...........nvm probably someday i may realise the importance but wat is the rush/ lol i am still young and happy so yah i wanna keep it dat way before all my skin sag and my chin reaches the floor. sorry those old ppl who read blogs and stuff yah........don fret i will look like u guys someday but meanwhile too bad for u
lol....i m so mean anyway gettin tired lol or rather lazy.....tml is another round of money takin....i hope....lol but anyway u guys rest well too......PEACE OUTTA HERE!!!!!

My BaCk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-01-17T19:10:00.000-08:00

heyss~~
today was a realli borin day cos literally nothin interesting happened exxept in chem class.......we were like supposed to learn somethin that i souldnt understand too but hadd to do with evaporation and cooling in some glass but anyway durin the lesson ms lee like got pissed la and a few clowns broke like a pippette those realli huge kind of pippettes and also a beaker or sumthin who cares........lol........well after skool went to the doctors to get my stupid back done by to my surprise polyclinic doctors realli are lousy and impatient ppl.........e guy who like served me went thru everythin so fast he didnt even care to probe abt anything he was like so lazy la.........jus issued pain killers and a massaging oil.for wat? i have been like takin those ever since my back hurts la dunno wat is wrong with tt lazy bugger..........anyway he say go back in a weeks time if still pain i bet i would haf tooo la even now i am feelin it.......anyway my dad is wanting me to go for an x-ray after he comes back frm dunno where also i think australia.......there is something cool tt happened like yesterday and that is someone gave us a drumset.......woah!!!!......but sad to say the quality realli yucky la.....but cant complain given mahx......lol......so today i get to learn tt polyclinic doctors are lazy and good for nothin.........anyway i gotta go......bb

BOREDOM RUNS THRU MY VEINS

2005-01-15T14:30:00.000-08:00

Boredom a term used by many youths today.......i guess i use it personally too.......i know some of you may be askin how come my blog posts are all bout stuff that aint abt my week or my day like how normal blogs will function..........well i write abt such stuff cause it impacts me a lot and they are stuff that i go thru......like boredom....especially boredom cause when we are bored we tend to think of stuff tt may be interesting but wrong......therefore i jus wanna share tt many a times it does happen to me......when stuff like dat happens i try and focus my mind on God and His word but it is truly hard......i haf faced problems in many areas and even in areas tt u may not think i face.....i noe how hard it is to lose something you treasure.......i recently lost something close to me and i haf been very sad abt it but i haf come to acknowledge tt there has to be some sort of purpose why such a thing happens...... by knowin tt this purpose has to do with wat God has planned for me it kinda takes a bit of the pain away but i still feel the aches every now and den.............it is indeed hard no matter wat u say but i believe onli God can ease the pain........no one else can not even by our own human understandin can we ever ease a pain tt we haf felt....i wanna realli tell u guys out dere who haf problems tt if u need prayer plz let me noe........i guess tt is all so bb

All in a day's work........NOT!!!!!

2005-01-10T17:21:00.000-08:00

hey peeps......
i am happy to say i mange to share the gospel to my fren, charles.........i hope you guys can pray that God will work within him.........
anyway gettin on with today......it was an ordinary day in skool for nothin extraordinary ever happens but as soon as i stepped into Mr Goy's class my nightmare started......... he finished the whole chpt of indices but that wasnt the bad part........the horror came when we were given our hmwk of abt 23 questions? who cares how many i jus know itz a lot.........fortunatley after that during MT, my chinese teacher didnt come so manage to do like half.........but it leaves me to questions why is sooo much hmwk given........they always say it is to help built our foundation but is that true or are some teachers jus sadistic.........give me your view in my tag board kkz.......lol......like forum lol anyway yah skool today was interestin yet borin too......i guess it was onli interestin because i manage to share the gospel. my fren was very happy in hearin wat i had to say and fully understanding it but he did not give me an answer yet......i told him no rush and jus take his time to thik abt it.......so plz pray with me tt he will accept Christ as his Lord and Saviour like we as christians out dere did..........i guess tt is jus half the day but this is the onli time i can post my stuff up anyway thatz it til tml so yah bye.........

My new look

2005-01-09T20:25:00.000-08:00

Hey y'all....
i wanna say a big sorry to those who haf been faithfully readin........i am realli very truly sorry.......i hope u like the new change in my layout....... i noe the words are a bit small but yah these is to compensate to the lack of space.......
Recently we have read of the tsunami and how it killed many.........i would like to suggest to us to jus think and reflect back on our actions to frenz, relatives, parents, siblings......etc...... For myself i have been thinkin more on my walk of faith with God........Indeed i ahve seen some changes in me with the help of my peers some good and some still not up to thier expectations......i am realli sorry if i ahve stumbled you in a way or two.........but looking back at the tsunami......many died not being to see the new year........it has indeed been something saddening but it has brought us a few lessons......one, have we taken anyone for granted? sometimes when we do something wrong and realise our mistakes we still try and cover up thinkin that the rite chance will come along to say 'sorry' or 'i love you' to our various peers and parents and especially those tt are something special to us.........wat if we were one of those affected and couldnt say 'sorry' to a brother you wronged or a spouse we argued with?........i guess i have also committed this mistake before and i wanna urge you out there not to think that you will always haf time tml to do such impt and meaningful things.......As a christian i noe tt God can and will take your lives away anytime because we are merely creatures who are filled with sin that are created by Him.....i am not suggestin that God put sin in us but we chose to sin against Him.....that is the truth of the matter that we are sinners..........hard to believe but yes.......puttin it in an easier way whatever tt we do that goes against God is known as sin..........but thankfully He has provided a way out and that is thru His son Jesus Christ who died on the cross........He died to redeem us but obviously this isnt for evryone.......no matter how much God loves us, if we do not accept Him as our Lord and Saviour and tt He is the only way, we will nv be saved. a greater joy is to know tt He will give us eternal life that after we die we may surpass judgement and will spend eternity wif Him in heaven..........wat i jus said are not a lie or a joke......laugh at it but at the end of the day our lives will be indeed spent differently......i noe i may be very strong bout this but it is the truth..........well.....we have different mindsets therefore the choice is yours.......this sounds like a starwars movie lol......anyway peace out man

you've got served

2004-11-21T21:54:00.000-08:00

Hey sup y'all...
actually i don realli noe who reads this thing man...lolx...itz like i don realli think i told no one bout this anyway yeah dis days been kinda busy man....practices and stuff and like jus realised tt i've got like 3 days left. man! like i am realli nervous and stuff man but like good news today i manage to receive 3 responses to my PSS letters adn raised an xtra $160 *bling bling* well realli glad tt ppl are interested in my life and stuff. wel this cash i hav kinda dedicated it to e rest of the team mates who cant but praise the Lord for those who responded. Anyway dilys if u get to read this....thx for prayin for me and thx for understandin me....u rawk......well i bought a new vcd (cos the dvd was outta stock) itz entitled "you've got served" itz like this dance competition thingy....kinda like drumline.....but itz totally awesome.....too bad i cant breakdance cos i'll probably end up in a wheelchair....lol....massive achin on my wretched back but cant be bothered wif it no more man....haix tml is bible trail practice and i hope to be able to play cs b4 i leave my hand achin to get to tt keyboard lolx.....haix wat can i do now? hmmm...... actually nothin much to say no more but i thank God for those out dere who also feel passionately abt missions cos u guys rawk......probably go advertise my blog now...lolx....PEACE

Out of this world event!!!

2004-11-18T06:02:00.000-08:00

While today started with devotion on Rom 12: 1-2. it was interesting to find the phrase " an out of this world experience" to be actually meant and in literal sense. many a times our actions somehow jus nv cease to make others laugh and cry and sometimes die.... i was realli reminded how i as a christian shld at tll time remember tt my actions shld be tt which glorifies Him and not man...all of us noe none of us are perfect but we somehow jus don realli give a damn at the end.
besides the devotion, we celebrated Sarah's b'day again but now wif the inclusion of a mango cake...so cool...well then practiced til out guts almost came out but i kept reminding myself wif
Eugene's fav phrase..itz all for the glory of God...
today somehow was kinda sad cause i didnt get to watch the incredibles but i kinda felt jealous when my bro got to go but anyhow i jus didnt noe how to react to the situation...ended up kinda pissed but then realised tt it wasn't realli worth it at all....fancy gettin angry over a cartoon...haix..
today osho kinda happy cause finally got to get hold on the simple plan cd ....lol ...finally after so long...thx roy for transfering it to my ipod.....
well....i think after reflectin over today i think it wasnt realli right for me to get angry at some one and i would like to apologize if tt person gets to read this but i think there were things both of us shldn't hav said and i wanna say sorry......
anyway got to go listn to my new songs and enjoy WELCOME TO MY LIFE.....this is so goin to make gwen jealous lol but u can look for me for the songs when u ready to return me my money!!! lol so yah chill out guys cause i'm outta here

Watz wrong wif this world?

2004-11-17T22:59:00.000-08:00

like my heading says watz wrong wif the world? many times we face crap in our lives everyday... ... sometimes literally we step on crap but most times itz cos crap jus exist in the ppl around u. not offending anyone in any way though. wat i am abt to say is not a verbal attack on certain ppl who think they are jus to smart.

well these ppl who think they are above the average in society or hold a high position some times u jus literally suck! all of us haf personal commitments in the form of a lot of stuff like relationships, positions in the society, and religiously too. Like me i hold my believe as a Christian to be top piority in my life. for those who don't realli noe i am goin to shout out specially to u guys. a Christians job is to go share the gospel to many out dere who don't noe and this has to be top piority in our lives or particularly in mine. durin the hols i grab this oppurtunity to try do such stuff and itz cos of the lack of time during the normal skool days. i love God more than any other thing on earth and nothin u can say and do can change me. commitments made personally are to be kept.....and i feel if there is realli no need for xtra stuff y don jus give it a break. i don care who u are ok!!!!

irresponsibility is when one is not prepared to take the punishments when put in a leadership postion..... irresponsibility is when a leader does not care for his/her peeps under them cos showing favouritism is jus a big mark of irresponsibility and jus havin a big post doesnt mean u are anything ok! wake up la!i hate peeps who try and stumble me cos i dont mind givin up the stuff in which i think e person leadin is jus weak so like give it up la........i will quit if itz a mus!!!!!

FREAK OUT!!!!!!!
soli deo gloria( for God's glory alone)