Thursday, April 26, 2007

My Life's Journey

My Life's Journey (title given by Pei Ying)

Dye me tattoo green
Trace on my life’s journey
Broken hearts and scars
Disfigure my whole being

I thought bleeding would stop the pain
As tears flowed down her face
Watching me delight
As night consumed the day

Crimson down my face
As they turned to look in shame

CHORUS
This is my life’s story
Filled with angst and pain
Though the whole world’s against me
Only she will shout out my name
Just to say “I love you!”


A pint of blood I lost
Just holding broken glass
Sipping down the horrors
I dream of every night

There she’s in the distant
Just calling out my name
Saying those sorry words
It pains me just to dream

I just want to scream
Its driving me insane

CHORUS
This is my life’s story
Filled with angst and pain
Though the whole world’s against me
Only she will shout out my name
Just to say ….

BRIDGE
It’s now my turn to say
I’m sorry
I’ll have to change this song
I’m singing

I love you
It doesn’t matter what the world says
I want to be with you
Even if the world ends today
Because I’ll say…
I love you

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

starry jaded lives we live

Starry Jaded lives we live as we peer across the moonlite way hoping for a spark of ingenuity to strike us. lets pray its not lightning. Life is cool to be classified starry and jaded. Starry personifies millions of stars which show how life is really litted and they are millions of choices put out to us just to make life a little more interesting. Furthermore this stars act as guiding lights to shuffle us across this life time so that no black hole is going to suck us in. On the hind side, jaded lifes can kill. Jaded basically means that we are just numb to many practices or beliefs of the world due to our own greed and over indulgence. Being jaded can honestly suck us high and dry.

With that said. Sober lives in this world basically involve us following each star in our life and having the perfect ending which also means we are bloody robots. Unfortunately life aint about the roses and pretty lilies that bloom and grow in and out of season. Life really is about morbit deaths and sinful lives that corrupt the basic humanity of this living entity we call earth. Jaded is the direct translation of our lifes as many of us get so used to inhumane practices or worldy beliefs that live becomes a page torned out of the orbituary page, grey and dead. its true because nowadays people start to argue relativism or post modernism if you like. Both this ideas speak of how we never wil find a true answer. As a result, major warpes theories strive to plague the world we live in and sadly, we are actually accepting these things. to hear how straight after the virginia tech incident, people stood up and out of their shit holes hoping to imitate the shooter. As of this point my heartfelt condolescence to the family and friends of those who were affected by the shooting. But this does not give rest to the fact that we as a race of people are slowly or more susceptable to just accepting anything the one eyed monster broadcast. Please learnt to be discerening to what are the facts adn what are the opinions. Do not let others opinions sway your beliefs but rather learn to see your beliefs as a stronghold to who you are. This post may in itself contain many opinions and you may agree to disagree with me but this are mine opinions and i apologize if in any of this comments i have hurt someone .

Saturday, April 14, 2007

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Hey this is really emo huh. i was looking at the wonder of this potrait behind me. adorned upon my wall was a story of a luthier who built wonderful violins. each note ringing in splendour of its maker. how i wish it was that easy for everything to be built so beautifully and at such perfection. thinking about the fact that over the last few days i have experienced many things that could not easily be explained in spoken languages. my whole being has nv felt so numb to the things that happened around me. However, God has continued to be faithful in keeping me intact even so when i have been faithless. i thank Him that He has placed so many wonderful instrumental people who have made my life a living orchestra. it just feels that every single step of the way i am failing myself but everyone has been spontaneous in keepin me so filled up. God's love never ceases to amaze even the blind like me. I wanna tell you that regardless of everything that has happened let us stick it out and continue to seek for God's revealation for both our lives. let not others affect our senses lest we succumb to our emotions and lose everything. love is a marathon so much so that if we run too fast we burn out. sometimes baby steps make the whole journey a lot more exciting as we just absorb every thing on our way. Lets do this together and continue to trust in God. I love you...