seriously cranky!

my fellow friends i bid you greetings from my very own hell hole!

tomorrow is the oral exams! bloody fast la!

panicky? nah!

planning to bull shit!

dun ask me about the spaces i ain't sure so...

anyway life so far? very much the same except a drastic change in my talk time...it seems my mobile phone would be underused until the O's are over...falling very sick now (not in my head ED!) and yeah it was contributed by the lack of a better half i guess....wonderboy left me for some shit hole yeah...hell was not good enough...well...stupid man!

anyway lost my alter ego, my ability to write songs and it seems my life! has become nothing but MUNDANE! i dunno what to say or feel but it aint no matter no more...i guess i aint emo! well maybe....haha! things between ppl have been about the same maybe i am becoming sensitive or the whole world is but yeah same o same o! cant imagine if you were to go to france! akon will so be my trash hold! its a bit the difficult to know any longer how i should write all this trash but i guess i would not be blogging for an uber long time soyeah...well the internet is full of other trash go make yourself at home... dun really think i would be missed much...

stagnant mobile; too chicken a boy to make the call!!

dont know why...

hey peeps its been another long time since i started blogging but yea well...anyway been going thru a lot since the last time i blogged some good and some bad but it doesnt really matter now... todays entry will come free and easy wherever my fingers go on this keyboard.

the moment we were born and could speak we started to question. and many of this questions seemed irrelevant to the adults cause none of them gave a damn on why the sky was blue or why rain fell and didn't rise... but it seems that we have become the very adults we detested. we cant really be bothered with those younger than us neither can we understand wth the older ppl talked abt. so ya. things are really reversing as we grow. this aint only for the questioning part but it works the same way as information. we used to marvel at the creation that walked the earth but now it seems as though that dont matter no more. why? is it not important to know why we were created. for one i would not tolerate that i was an accident and out of somebodies nose hair came such a being like me...thats all the bull the world offers and yup its stupid...lol...

the next thing i would go into is......music?
i dunno music is really something that seems to always match a certain mood we have. listn to jazz brings us to the relack one corner kinda mentallity but if we were to go on to metal we would do it based on angst and everythin but happiness yougeddawaddaimean....so music plays by mood. like as i type this lethargic post i am listn to norah jones throw me jazz ballads and make me sleepy and yes i am tempted to hear angus young crank up his guit or billie joe armstrong scream his ounk lungs out and maybe even get that fone call i am so waiting for... it makes me feel comforted to hear the fone ring but many times the people on the other end aint what i am seeking to reduce my troubles.... where is that special person....well take things easy and every stride with pride and walk on by.... kudos to the ppl out dere who have cared for the angsty bugger behind the keyboard so yeah... chill and rock on man...

anyway i gotta bid you farewell.... going to relak one corner....

peace!